Random Imagines

78 - Ryan Abe ( YouTube )

" I kinda had an idea you and I would never last,  you loved the idea of me way more than you loved me. And for a spilt second I thought you'd love me back, I thought you'd realize that I was so much more than just a pretty face. But you never did... I was always your second choice, and I will always be the guys' second choice. I am the definition of always the bridesmaid and never the bride, " I say to my camera, quickly editing it and then saving it onto my computer. 

I turn around to see Oscar standing at my door. " You know you should really start doing happier quotes, " he tells me, which only causes me to chuckle towards him. 

" It's what the fans want, plus I like showing young girls that even the 'prettiest' girls get treated like shit, because men are terrible, " I comment towards him. He gives me a nod. 

I'm hanging out with Jazmine today, her and I have been friends for a while. I am 4 years younger than her, but it's alright. She always says I'm an old soul, which a lot of people say that when it comes to me. 

" What about you cause you're young, what's your opinion? " Jaz asks. 

" I mean, I think that I'm alright with dating in the friend group, but I usually don't just cause of a past relationship where we were in the friend group and I was kicked out of it because we broke up. Like as Ryan says it depends on the people in the relationship. Like I know if someone in our friend group and I dated and we broke up I know we would still be able to be like hey we need to just have boundaries and stuff like that. But that's also cause I respect my friends more than anything for that matter, " I tell them, which they just nod. " That is not every 23 year old opinion but that is mine, " I add. 

" See I love seeing her opinion cause it's usually around mine, but you're also the oldest of 5 siblings and have an old soul, " Jaz says which causes me to laugh. 

" You know she has me in her phone as Old Wise Soul, " I tell Ryan, which only causes him to laugh. 

" And that's probably the reason why you like older guys, " Jaz comments, which causes me to nod. 

" Wait you like older guys? " Kevin asks, I give him a nod. 

" The last guy I dated that was my age was like sophomore year of high school. It's just for me I'm very mature for my age, and so I find it more with the idea of I need a more mature guy and that's usually someone who is a few years older than me. Now I have a number of when I will stop that age, but I still think that it is okay for me. My parents are also a good years apart from each other that is another reason why, " I tell him. 

" I actually have a question, when did you figure that out? " Jaz asks me. 

" When my sophomore boyfriend tried to kick me out of my friend group, tried to turn everybody against me. Even though he was the one who cheated, in that moment I was like okay yeah if you want to be a dick you can be a dick I don't really care. Just know the when you crawl back to me, which he did, I will not let you get anywhere close to me, " I tell her. 

" To all of the girls out there, Y/n and I are going to be doing a video answering a lot of questions more centered around girls, " Jaz tells me, which causes me to just nod towards her. 

I had to exit for a little bit cause my mom called me, so I had to call her back. She doesn't call me that often so I knew it must have been something important. 

I walked back into the room without even saying a word, and all of them noticed. I left immediately, I did hear someone walking after me and when I got to my car I instantly started breaking down, and Ryan was right there holding me. She called about her results, she was getting some tests done with all of the health problems she has. " What's wrong? " He asks me picking up my head so that I am looking at him.