𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝘽𝙇𝘼𝘾𝙆 𝙋𝙃𝙊𝙉𝙀 𝙄𝙈𝘼𝙂𝙄𝙉𝙀𝙎

- 𝐌𝐀𝐘𝐁𝐄 𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃'𝐕𝐄 𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐃 - 𝐫.𝐚

- 𝐌𝐀𝐘𝐁𝐄 𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃'𝐕𝐄 𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐃 - 𝐫.𝐚

ABOUT: your boyfriend robin was taken by the grabber along with his best friend finney, he made it out but finney didn't, survivors guilt is slowly consuming him

( angst, suicidal thoughts , grab the tissues)

IM MAKING MY WAY to my boyfriends house, he recently escaped the grabber his best friend finney sadly didn't, robin hasn't been doing too good, he hasn't been going to school which is understandable, i'm going to check up on him

i knocked on the door of his house, his ma answered

"oh hello sweetie" she said

"hi ms arellano is robin here" i said

her face dropped "uh...yes, darling can you talk to him for me he won't let any of us in his room hopefully he'll let you in" she said with a sad look spread across her face

i nodded "i will" i said smiling sadly

i walked upstairs to robins room, his door was shut

i knocked on the door

"robin? it's y/n can you let me in?" i said

i heard a sniffle following with slow foot steps

he then opened the door

he looked really depressed

no excitement, no emotion, his eyes blood shot red and puffy with bags under them , he was super pale as well

i gave him a pity look

he walked back over to his bed laying down facing his window

i closed the door behind me, i walked over to his bed and laid down next to him

"robin...talk to me please" i said

he looked at me , his eyes were glossy

"about what" he said numbly

"about how your feeling" i said

"i'm fine" he shrugged

"robin...you got kidnapped and watched your best friend die in front of your own eyes and your telling me your fine!?" i said

his eyes watered

"i don't know what you want me to say" he said

"i want you to tell me what's going on robin your family's worried i'm worried!" i said

"i-" he sighed as he looked at me "i'm just sad ok" he said

"i know robin" i said
"tell me what's going on in your head" i said

he took awhile to answer

"...i don't know i just feel like there's some fucked up reason why i survived and he didn't...and then i think i should be great ful that i'm alive but i'm not" he said tearing up

i pulled him into a hug sitting on his lap

he cried on my shoulder for about 3 mins straight until i heard something that made my stomach turn

"maybe i should have died" he said with a shaky voice

i pulled away giving him a 'are you serious' face

he looked at me cluelessly

"what did you just say?"i said

"i said...maybe i should've died" he said looking down

i felt tears fill my eyes

"is that how your feeling robin" i said

he looked at me before nodding

"it isn't fair he should've survived not me" he said as tears fell down his face

"oh baby" i said as a tear fell down my face too

"it's all my fault y/n he saw the van and said maybe we should leave but i was confident it was nothing, next thing i knew we were in a fucking basement, it's all my fucking fault, it's my fault he's dead, it's my fault we got in there in the first place" he said breaking down into full blown tears

i held his face as i wiped every tear that ran down his face

"it's not your fault robin" i said

"it is tho" he said finally looking into my eye

"robin listen to me...it's not your fault it's all that man's fault he killed finn he kidnapped you it's all his fault not yours robin you have to understand that, laying in your bed and crying isn't gonna make it any better baby" i said

he stayed quiet staring into my eyes

"you need to live for finney, he wouldn't want you to feel this way, he would want you to go out there and live for him not to just end it all, that was the whole purpose right? to get out of the basement" i said

"...your right" he said sniffling

"i love you so much i don't want you to think about that stuff" i said

"i love you too" he said smiling

i smiled and kissed his lips softly

we both pulled away

"thank you y/n i needed that" he said smiling

"i'll always be here robin" i said hugging him

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