Tired of fighting

Chapt: 37

Both of us went to our room. River goes to the guest room and i go to mine.

I can't sleep like always. It's always been like this it's probably never gonna change.

I stand up turn on my lights and what i always do in night when I can't sleep or had a nightmare is paint or write.

The other day I finished the one with River on it. So now i'm gonna paint something new.

I grab my pencil and draw a sketch. I'm gonna draw me and River together.

"Oh god i'm do pathetic." I say while i'm sketching.

I trow my pencil away angry.

But I don't hear it fall.....

"Your not pathetic darling."

I turn around and River closing the door with the pencil in his other hand.

"What are you doing here?!" I say.

"To check in with you." He says.

You look confused to him.

"Just to make sure your asleep." He says while walking towards me.

He hand me the pencil but i was about to get it when he moves his hand.

"Say sorry." He says.

"For what do i need to be sorry?" I say.

"For almost trowing you pencil in my eye." He days.

I laugh."really? How would i know that you would come in when i trow a pencil." I say.

"You can't." He says laughing.

He hugs you while you both laugh.

We both pull away.

"But i really love the sketch now paint it." He says.

"You serious? Its ridiculous." I say i was about to tear the paper in pieces when River stops me.

"It isn't. I think it's lovely. Go paint it!" He says.

I look at him."really? What if someone sees it?" I say.

"Like who? No one comes in your room. Only Charlotte but just hide it if you feel like that's better?" He says.

"Yeah well i will see." I say.

"You know elio is leaving so I'm gonna be here all the time." He says.

"In my room too because I wouldn't mind." I say as i stand close to him.

He is like 20cm taller or more so i need to look up to him.

"I wouldn't mind either." He days smiling and leans toward me and he kisses me softly.

I pull away and turn to my painting.

"I'm not finished yet i still need to do the little things. Are you going to your room or?" I say as i look back at him.

"No i'm gonna stay here and watching you paint." He days and he sits on my bed.

I smile at him." Alright but i bet your gonna fall asleep." I say.

"Oh no I don't think so." He days.

"I know so because this is gonna be a long painting. I can't get it finished by the night but i will paint the whole night." I say as i start sketching a bit.

"Well i will be right here." He says.

A hour later he is still awake and staring at me we're just talking about anything.