If I were a human, would you still love me?

Chapter 56. Im sorry.

"Hey, Iruma, can I come in?"

It was the voice of Opera, wich I didn't expect. I thought he was still at border control. I didn't want him to come in today, I felt betrayed, he broke my trust. He broke it more than grandpa, because he used to tell grandpa to stop, now Opera also wants me gone.

I didn't reply, so Opera knocked again. "Iruma?" He asked, the tone of his voice a bit softer. I really wanted to ignore him, but I didn't.

"Come in." I hesitantly said. Opera slowly opened the door, stepping inside. I had already sat up from my bed, and was staring at Opera.

"Hey there, Iruma." He said, walking up to the bed. "Were you sleeping?" He then asked. I nodded. It was a lie, I didn't sleep, I just thought about you betraying me.

"Oh, thats good then." He then said. "That way you'll recover faster." He added. "Now, how did it go today?" He asked me, sitting down on the bed.

"Surprisingly good." I said, really not in the mood to talk to him. He nodded at me. "How so?" He then asked. "Well.." I began. "Kiriwo didn't hurt me, gave me cookies to eat and tea, and showed me cat videos." I said, lying about the last part. Opera nodded again, he didn't seem suprised, but I knew he probably was deep inside.

"Thats odd of him." He then remarked. "I know." I responded. "But baking is him for some reason." I then also remarked. "He made me chocolates and now cookies. I thought he drugged them, im sad he didn't." I sarcastically said. I kinda hoped he did drug them, then I wouldn't have to be here.

"Oh." Opera responded, looking straight into my eyes. "Did something happen today?" He then asked me. "Yep." I responded. "But thats none of your business." I then hissed. "Sorry." I added.

"Don't worry about it." Opera said, looking his neutral self. "Dinner is ready." He spoke, standing up. I also stood up from the bed, and followed him to the living room. I sat down at my chair, staring at the empty table. I sighed loudly, grandpa and Opera both noticed. Grandpa was sitting there, staring at me while Opera was carrying dishes to the table.

"Are you alright?" Grandpa asked. I nodded in response. I really was fine, I just had to suck it up. "Alright.." Grandpa then smiled. "If you say so.."

Opera then dropped the plates off in front of me. Instead of eating from them I stared at them. I didn't wana eat, id rather starve. It wasn't bad not to eat, I had enough to eat today already.

Eventually the table was filled with food, and Opera had sat down. I hadn't even touched my plate yet. Grandpa looked at me in worry. "Is something the matter?" He asked softly, I softly shook my head, he didn't notice that I shook my head at all, and thought ignored him.

"Iruma?" Opera then asked. "Do you not enjoy the food?" I shook my head. "No the food is fine." I said, feeling tears dwell up in my eyes. I was such a bother. Opera spent all this time making me something to eat and I didn't even take it. Grandpa is worried about me, just like everyone at this point. All my classmates think im sick, Clara hates me, Asmodeus thinks I wana hurt myself and don't take care of myself and im just making it worse. Why am I even here at all right now? I could have just stayed in my fucking room instead of wasting my breath.

Opera and grandpa just want the best for me, just like everyone else, and im only making it worse. They must all hate me, im sure of it. Thats why they want me gone.

Opera had called out for me a few times, wich I hadn't heard. He had then stood up, and walked over to me, to get a better look at my face. I had been staring down at my food, my hair falling over my face.

He kneeled down to me, as I was on the chair, so we could be more leveled and took my hand. I shrieked. I hadn't noticed him coming up to me. I looked at him, tears falling down my face. I was such a drama queen.