Harry Styles Fanfiction - Remember Me?

Chapter 281

July 2019
**YOUR POV**
After we were done with the show, Harry and I decided to have a night out and go to a restaurant to have a nice and romantic dinner. We went to a restaurant right at the beach, one we often went to whenever we were here and wanted to have dinner out, so the owner knew us pretty well by now. We got a table outside right beside the ocean, the sound of the waves making everything even more romantic as it got darker and only the lights of the restaurant lit up the place. It was absolutely beautiful and moments like this were the ones I appreciated so much.

The wind in my hair, watching out at the sea and the waves crashing, my husband sitting right in front of me and the delicious dinner we had made everything so perfect. It was all so simple, but perfect.

„What are you thinking about, beautiful?" Harry asked me, watching me with a loving smile before he placed his hand on top of mine as we waited for dessert.

„Nothing." I looked at him, smiling back. „I just feel really, lucky. I love you so much, H."

„Love you more, my love." He leaned in to kiss my lips quickly. „You look so beautiful."

„Thanks, babe." I chuckle. „You've told me that many times already tonight."

„I know, but can't say it enough times." He said. „Your performance tonight was incredible, Y/n."

„Thank you, I had so much fun while performing."

„I could tell." He ran his thumb over the back of my hand. „Everyone loved it."

„I'm glad to hear that.

Dessert arrived eventually and we spent a beautiful rest of the night together in our own little bubble before we headed back home where we went to bed, but decided to watch a movie until we both couldn't keep our eyes open anymore and fell asleep in each other's arms.

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The next day, I was up early, even earlier as Harry was as I saw him still sleeping peacefully next to me which was rare, so I let him sleep and went downstairs to get myself a glass of orange juice and went outside the back to sit in one of the lounge benches outside, enjoying the beautiful weather and the sun that was already shining bright. It was still early, so it wasn't as hot outside just yet which I really enjoyed. We still had today to enjoy the LA sun a little before we'd fly back to London tomorrow.

„Morning, beautiful." I heard Harry's still raspy morning voice behind me and saw him rounding the corner with a small breakfast buffet on a tray in his hands that he placed on the small table in front of the lounge benches.

„Morning." I instantly grabbed a croissant. „No run this morning?"

„Nope, didn't feel like working out today." He placed himself next to me, grabbing a croissant as well.

„Are you doing okay?" I joked, placing my hand on his forehead as it was very unusual for him to not feel like working out. „Is this really you? What have you done to my husband?"

He laughed at that, sweetly. „Is that so surprising?"

„Well yes. You're Harry Styles, you work out EVERY single day." I said. „If it's running, a proper work out or whatever you do at the gym. You always do at least something a day."

„Okay, okay, you're right." He giggled. „Maybe I'll go for a swim later." He looked at the pool that was still covered with its cover to keep it clean whenever we weren't here.

„There he is! My husband that I know and love." I smiled.

He shook his head, leaning in and placing his hand on the side of my neck wit his thumb placed on my cheek before he kissed me hard on my lips.

I giggled at the tickling sensation and got up. „I'll get us some more juice."

„Y/n wait, what was that?" He asked with a frown, looking at my neck and I thought he was still joking around.

„Probably a hickey you left there last night." I chuckled, turning around again.

„No, babe come back for a second." He was all serious, so I turned around slowly and went back to where I was sitting.

"Why?" I frowned confused.

„It's your neck." He placed his hand on the left side of my neck again and looked closely, pressing around on it before he did the same on the other side of my neck.

„Harry what is it?" I started to get concerned.

„I'm not sure...it's just..." He sighed, still frowning.

„Babe, just tell me."

He clearly hesitated as he still looked at the spot on my left side.

„Haz?"

„It's your lymph nodes on this side...it feels like...as if they were kind of swollen." He hesitated again. „I don't know Y/n, but I really don't like this...it feels like...like a lump..."

„Harry this is not funny. Don't fuck with me. Don't fucking joke about this." I quickly stood back up, my voice already trembling just at the thought of it.

I knew he wasn't joking, he would never joke about this, but if I'd reach my hand up to feel it myself, I'd just lose it.

„Y/n, baby, I'm not joking. I wish I was, but I would never." He said softly, standing up himself and making me sit back down before he crouched down in front of me.

„Harry, I can't...I- I- can't..." Was all I could say before I eventually reached up and felt it, right where my lymph nodes were and I instantly shut my eyes closed, trying to keep breathing. It felt just like the way it did when I was sick. „No, no, no, no, no!" Tears immediately streamed down my cheeks.

„Hey, shhhh, sweetie. Breathe for me please." Harry placed both his hands on my shaking arms. „Just take a breath for a second. This doesn't mean anything as of yet, okay?"

„If the cancer is back, I-...I-." I cried. „I can't do this anymore, Harry, I cannot do this anymore."

He pulled me into his arms and held me tightly against his warm chest. „It won't be back, Y/n. We don't know what it is yet. Let's not freak out before we know for sure." He whispered in my ear. „Take a breath, baby. It'll be okay." He rubbed my back soothingly. „I'll call your Doctor at the hospital so we can go in today and you'll let it get checked."

I nodded against his chest. „I'm scared, Harry."

„I know you are, Y/n. It's all gonna be okay." He kept rubbing my back before he kissed my cheek. „You'll be just fine, baby. I love you."

„Love you more." I whispered, closing my eyes and hoping that Harry was right and that all would be okay.