"I was a troublemaker when I was a kid. I'd always go and trick people, making them believe one thing then lying about another. I regret it now." I shook my head in disbelief, smiling a little. "I think the cancer is to get back at what I had done wrong."
I didn't want to believe it, but it was true, I knew I'd get some sort of Karma for it. Sitting in this hospital bed makes me wonder if I could ever forgive the ones I'd hurt, or if they'd forgive me.
"Don't tell yourself that, it's not true."
"Then what is it? Cause I don't know Care, and I'd damn well like to find out why I have to go through this." She held my hand tight, but it didn't keep me from remembering the pain I had inside me.
"I know I say I'm okay, but.." I let tears roll down my eyes. I couldn't beat this? There was no way that I, Derek Taylor, could kick cancers ass. I just couldn't see it. "I know we can do this, you can do this. Don't let yourself down or you won't get any hope."
Hope. I tried to find the meaning of it. I'd only started with cancer for two weeks, and I already felt like hell was taking over. I know I said I had hope, but how much? I was so caught up in the whole Cate thing, I didn't even know when to pray for myself.
I couldn't leave Wren? I couldn't leave Caroline either, or Alyssa. They needed me, and I needed them. If I didn't have them, I'd have nothing.
"Your right, I need hope. I need to not only think of myself, but what I have. And I need to be grateful for it." She smiles, lighting of the room, and the florescent white walls, growing there accent around her. "That's right." She says with confidence.
I know right then and there, that I'll be okay If I had hope.
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Chasing Fate- New Beginnings (UNDER EXTREME EDITING)
General Fiction"You know that one person that is supposed to do you right? or show you the things that you never knew were there? That person is the love of your life. Your soul mate, your salvation." Caroline is now a young mother. On her own, she tries to start...
