AWRY LOVE [1 & 2]

*BOOK II: 35*

LARISA'S POV

You know the pain, when you feel like your heart is being twisted and try pulling out painful off your body?

That is me right now.

My hands slowly releases from the doctors collar. I dropped on my knees. I felt like everything, every sound around me just stopped.

My Antonio.

A sob left my mouth. I let out a ear piercing scream as my palms lay flat on the cold ties. I closed my eyes tight but few tears managed to escape. Another sob left my trembling mouth.

I shook my head. Doctors can't lie such a big thing. This is some nightmare. I slapped my cheeks a couple of times as hard as I can, ignoring the pain I'm giving myself.

"Antonio!" I screamed out in agony. I yelled again as the pain in my chest was too much to endure.

My head turns to the ICU double doors as it opens. They roll the same bed they brought him in with out.

I quickly stood up and ran to it. A body was covered from the toe to the head. I took off the sheet from the face.

Meeting Antonio's shut eyes. I continuously sob. I hold the sheet in fist. I shut my eyes tight as the sight of him like this was not helping. "Why Antonio?! Why?!" I yelled out.

Ryan pulls me off his body. He turns me around and engulfs me in a hug. As I watch them cover him back and continue rolling the bed away. I continuously sob on Ryan's chest not carrying how wet it's becoming.

No, I'll have to join him. I can't live in this cruel world without him. It's useless.

My sobbing comes to a halt. I moved away from Ryan's chest as I look up to face him. He gives me a pity full look. I had to look somewhere else.

"I-I want to go home." I said coldly moving away from Ryan.

"What? Why?" Ryan asks surprised.

"I just need to." I said, quickly glancing at him then looked away. He silently stares at me for a while. He sighs.

"Okay, I'll drop you of-"

"No, it's fine. I'll tell them to drop me off. You....you can just stay here." I said, pointing at Leo.

"Are you sure? I mean are you okay being home? Alone?"

"Yeah.......It's perfect." I said smiling slightly. 

"Uh, okay. See you soon." He says.

If you can. I thought, chuckling mentally.

I nodded at him and walked straight to Leo. He stood straight once he sees me approaching.

"Take me home." I said.

"I'm sorry-"

"Now, please." I said cutting him off.

"Okay." He nods then turns as we walk towards where the exit is directed.

***

He parks in. I waisted no time coming out and walking quickly to the door. It was not locked as I remembered when we rushed him out.

I got in and close the door. I turn and walk straight upstairs. I got in our room and went straight to the drawer and draw it open.

I sigh in satisfaction. Here it is.

I stare at the golden gun Antonio gave me. I took it out and hold it tightly.