𝐧𝐮𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐮𝐝𝐝𝐲 || 𝐭. 𝐤𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐲𝐚𝐦𝐚

⤷𝟙𝟙: 𝕠𝕧𝕖𝕣 𝕪𝕠𝕦

you thought you were fine.

you thought you'd be fine.

you thought it didn't matter.

but the moment your eyes saw kageyama, everything came back.

everything.

all the memories, all the emotions... it was like you were back.

back to the past you ran away from.

in that exact moment, you felt like you were being transported back two years ago, to the old and vulnerable you.

don't.

you inhaled deeply, trying not to remember everything you've been through.

we're done. and seeing him shouldn't bother me.

not anymore.

why was he here? of all places? here?

but even as you mentally scolded yourself, you could feel yourself start to shake.

"y/n?"

with enormous effort, you pulled your gaze away from the dark haired setter to look at nari.

she gave you a confused look. "you okay? you look a little pale."

unable to form words, you gave her a small nod before bringing your attention back to the volleyball players below the elevated stands.

the players had just started their warm up by the coaches.

from the corner of your eyes, you saw your best friend grin while passing a volleyball to kageyama.

wait...what?

but before you could think too much about the interactions between atsumu and kageyama, nari got your attention again.

"y/n?" she had a worried look on her face. "what's wrong?"

"i need to get out of here," you whispered.

"what?" nari blinked, thinking she heard you wrong.

"i need to get out."

"why? weren't you looking forward to your friends' tryouts?"

you were about to shake your head when you realized the truth in nari's words.

i should stay for my friends.

why should i let one person change my plans?

you took another deep breath. "you're right. i should stay."

sitting back down, you took out your phone, trying to distract yourself from the emotions that consumed you.

the emotions that should no longer consume you.

yet they do.

they always do.

✰

forever a playboy<3
[ 2:36 pm ]

toru

TORU

y/n?? how's tryouts? :>

he's here

he's fucking here

he. is. here.

i need to get out but i shouldn't