CTW Funtime Freddy x Reader

Mental (vent)

First published: July 13, 2021
Sensitive topics ahead. This one's personal but I need to get this out.
I know I have more rant chapters than I have the actual story. But I think I need help. I am kinda scared right now. I've had thoughts about the future as a kid, and I thought I'd live a happy life. And now, I'm not so confident. I guess the best way to put my mentality right now is in the words of Funtime Freddy himself, "But that requires action, doesn't it? To change a life for the better? It's much easier, and ultimately much more satisfying, just to snuff it out." Trust me, Count the Ways has nothing to do with this. This is pretty personal but I'm just stuck in this depressed state right now. And I don't know how to get out of it, so I'm scared it might grow into something suicidal...I already have the scars on my arms to worry about.

Edit:June 14, 2022
Wow. Nearly a full year later and I'm still seeing people view this page. I wanna quickly say that the comments were very much appreciated. I also wanted to say that I'm perfectly fine now. I eventually talked to my parents when they saw my scars and they made me go to a counselor. It's helped a lot since then. I felt guilty about the support shown on here and I didn't want this to seem like some kind of guilt trip. I legitimately thought I'd eventually commit self un-alive at the moment I first wrote this and I didn't know who I could talk to about it. I just wanted to get it out to someone, anyone. Thx for the love, even if I'm a bit late to the party hehe