Forever

The Last Goodbye

Today is the day wherebI will say goodbye to my mum. I loved her so much, I still do love her, but I know for a fact that things will never be the same without her.

At the moment, I'm sitting on my bed with a hand mirror in front of me. I'm applying my make up, but it keeps getting smudges from the tears. I'm wrsrig a black, knee length dress that has lace all over it. It had sleeves which go up to my elbows. I am wearing a pair of black heels and taking a black hand bag.

"You look beautiful." Nathan says as he pokes his head into the room.

"You don't look so bad yourself." I say as I put my make up away.

"You ready?" Asks Nathan.

"Yeah." I say.

I take Nathan's hand and we walk down stairs. I stand by the window and when the car with my mum's coffin drives past, I start to hyperventilate. Nathan notices me and rushes over to me.

"It's ok!" Says Nathan as he guides me to the sofa.

"It's ok? How is any of this ok? I'm about to bury my mum! I want to die because I feel alone!" I say as I push Nathan away from me.

He looks hurt. I know it's my mum's funeral, but their is no reason to be bad tempered with him. God I feel so guilty.

"Nathan. I'm sorry. Hey. Do you know what tomorrow is?" I say as I love back to him.

"Our 3 week anniversary." Nathan says with a smile.

I hug him and then we go. We get to the church and soon enough it's my turn to make a speech.

"Hi. My name is Harper and I am an only child. My mum raised me single handedly and most of the time she was jobless. Which is why I worked hard and made my own business, which has now qualified for the world championships. Sorry. I really don't know what to say except that my mum was my mum. And I wouldn't change her for the world. We did everything together and she was sort of like a second mother to my best friend and now boyfriend, Nathan Montgomery. My mum would have loved to see us together, but my stupid brain did not engage fast enough to message him. Anyway. Less about me, more about my mum. She is my hero, my rock and I really don't know how I'm going to be able to live life without her. She's all the family I've got. One more thing. For those who are feeling down or want to give up, here's a quote that my mum always told me. What if I fall? But my dear, what if you fly?. Thank you. God has earned a beaitiful angel." I say with tears streaming from my eyes.

The service soon ends. Nathan and I get into a car that takes us down to the local pub where we are having the after party. I sit in silence for the whole time.

I must have dropped off to sleep, because the next thing I know, I'm being carried bridal style into my bedroom.

"What do you want to do tomorrow?" I ask as I get changed into my pyjamas.

"I have something planned. Are you ok with doing things after today or do you want to wait?" Nathan asks as he strips down to his boxers. He climbs into bed next to me and holds me.

"I love you." I whisper.

"I love you to." Nathan whispers back. He turns to me and we share a few kisses.

After that, we fall asleep. I'm so glad to have a man like Nathan in my life. He'd make a perfect dad some day. Not just yet though. He still needs to end things with Gabriella. That's the thing I'm worried about so far. How is he going to tell her? Does she still love her?

Don't be silly. He's with you now and he said he has something planned for tomorrow. I don't want anything to ruin it. Nothing.