Forever

Welcome Home

The last three months couldn't have gone any slower. Nathan is due home today. He has 3 months until he is deployed in Afghanistan. I have ha a confirmation e-mail to say I have an audition for he XFactor.

At the moment, me, Lily and Rachel are sitting in the cafe. We are drinking and talking when...

"Nathan!" I say.

I get up out of my seat and run into the arms of my living husband. God I've missed him. People are looking, but I don't care.

"I've missed you so much." I say.

"I've missed you to." Says Nathan.

We walk back to the table and Nathan instantly goes for Lily. He carefully picks her up and cuddles her. I get up to go to the toilet and when I'm inside, I slip on some water and knock myself out.

♡☆Start Of Flashback☆♡

"So, we are going to go through 5 voice recordings. Hopefully one or two identify the people's who were in the car" says the officer.

We go through all the recordings and thank God I can recognise both.

"Its number two and number five." I say.

"Are you on hundred percent sure? Do you need to hear them again?" Asks the officer.

"I'm sure." I say.

Lily starts crying and then I hear my name being called.

♡☆End Of Flashback☆♡

"Harper?" Says a familiar voice. Nathan.

I sit up and see Nathan and a few members of staff.

"What happened?" I ask.

"It looks like you slipped." Says Nathan.

"Oh. Where's Lily?" I ask.

"Rachel is sitting with her outside." Says Nathan.

Nathan helps me up. I feel fine, just a little dizzy.

"We need to take you to the hospital." Says Nathan.

"I feel fine." I say.

"You may feel fine, but we need to get you checked." Says Nathan.

"Ok." I say.

"Here's some ice." Says one of the staff members

I hold the ice up to where I hit my head and then walk out. A few people at looking, but I'm concentrating on where I'm walking. We get to the hospital and I'm taken for an xray.

"So, it looks like there are no problems." Says the doctor.

"See, I told you I was fine." I say to Nathan.

"But, you need to test. It says you had a baby?" Says the doctor.

"Yes. She's 3 months old." I say.

"Ok. Try not to do to much." Says the doctor.

"Ok. Can i go home now?" I ask.

"Sure." Says the doctor.

We go home and the car ride is silent. As soon as we get in, I sit on the couch and have a cuddle with Lily.

"Harper, what do you want for dinner?" Asks Rachel.

"Can we just order pizza. You go home tomorrow and I want this to last." I say.

"Pizza it is." Says Rachel.

Rachel orders the pizza from the kitchen and then Nathan comes and sits with me.

"What you thinking about?" Asks Nathan.

"Everything." I say.

"Harper. Tell me what's wrong." Says Nathan.

"Nothing's wrong Nathan." I say.

I pass Lily to him and go upstairs. I go into the bathroom and sit on the toilet with the lid down.

"Harper. Can i come in?" Asks Rachel.

"Its fine. I'll be out in a minute." I say.

I wash my face to hide the tears and then open the door.

"Harper. You need to talk to me. Let everything out." Says Rachel.

"You're leaving. Nathan's going to leave me. Why is everyone leaving me?" I say.

"Harper. If I could stay, I would. But grandad needs me, so does nan." Says Rachel.

"I know. Just, I feel so alone. I'm not happy." I say.

"You think I'm going to leave you?" Says Nathan.

"Nathan. You are supposed to be watching Lily." I say.

"She's asleep in her been bag." Says Nathan.

"I leave you two to talk." Says Rachel.

Rachel goes and I start crying even more.

"How much did you hear?" I ask.

"Enough. What do you mean, you're not happy?" Asks Nathan.

"I'm not happy in this marriage! You left for three months and promised you'd come back every weekend! You broke that promise!" I say with my voice starting to he louder.

"I left so I could train for a job that would give me a good pay. An excellent pay." Says Nathan.

"This is what I mean. This is why I'm not happy in this marriage because all you care about is money!" I say practically shouting.

"Money? Is that what you really think I only care about. Harper. I care about you and Lily more than care about myself." Says Nathan.

"Really? Because it definatley looks like it." I say.

"Harper. Please, stop shouting." Says Nathan.

"Not until you listen." I say.

"Ok. I'm listening." Says Nathan.

"For the last three months, I have wanted to get up and leave. To come and find you. I missed you so much and you not being there when you promised you'd come back, killed me. I cried every night because you weren't there to kiss Lily or me goodnight. You weren't there to say good morning when I woke up. You weren't there when I would cry because LIly wouldn't stop crying herself. You weren't there Nathan." I say.

"I know. And I'm sorry. I should have come home when I had the chance. The only reason I couldn't was because the transport was down." Says Nathan.

"So why didn't you call me, I would have come and picked you up." I say.

"I know you had Lily to take care of and I didn't want to stress you out." Says Nathan.

"Oh, stop with the excuses Nathan." I say.

"They are not excuses! They are the truth." Says Nathan.

"No they are not!" I say.

"When will you learn to understand that I actually mean these things?" Nathan shouts.

"When will you understand that I feel alone?" I say.

Tears are streaming down my face and the only person I want right now is my mum.

"WHEN WILL YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!"