Forever

1 Month To Go

I'm now 8 months pregnant which means I'm due in one month. At the moment, me and Nathan are at home. I'm laying on the sofa and Nathan is sitting at the end and he's giving me a foot massage.

"Nathan. We need to go get Lily." I say.

"Ok. I'll get your shoes. Converse, pumps or flip flops?" Asks Nathan.

"Flip flops please." I say.

Nathan get up to get my shows and I sit up on te couch. Nathan comes over and puts my flip flops on the floor. He helps me up and I slip them on. We then get into the car and Nathan drives to pick Lily up.

"Do you want to wait in the car whilst I get Lily or do you want to come with me?" Asks Nathan.

"I'll come with you." I say.

I undo my seatbelt after Nathan parks the car and he opens my door. He helps me out and then holds my hand as we walk to the nursery.

"Hey sweetheart." I say.

"Mummy!" Lily shouts.

I try to bend down, but feel a pain in my lower back. I hide the fact that it hurt and Nathan picks Lily up. We sign her out and then go to the car. Nathan straps Lily in and then gets in the front seat.

"McDonalds!" Lily shouts.

"You want to go McDonalds?" I ask

"Yeah!" Says Lily

We soon arrive at McDonalds and surprisingly, it isn't busy. I get a table whilst Lily and Nathan get the food. Nathan pays and hen a few minutes later, he comes over with the tray. After eating my food, I begin to feel the pains again. This time, I can't help but showing it hurts.

"Harper. Are you ok?" Asks Nathan.

"Yeah. Just Braxton hicks. They're getting stronger. Probably because I'm so close to my due date." I say.

"How long has this being going on because it looks like more than Braxton hicks." Says Nathan.

"Fine. It's just pain in my lower back, but it only started aloe today when we picked Lily up." I say.

"I'm taking you to the hospital just to be on the safe side." Says Nathan.

"Nathan. Please. It's not that big of a deal." I say.

"Harper. I'm taking you to hospital. End of." Says Nathan.

"Seriosuly?" I say as we get up and start walking to the car.

"Harper. Something could be wrong." Says Nathan.

I don't bother arguing anymore, so I just sit in the car in silence. We get to the hospital and Nathan parks the car.

"Look. You know I only want to know if you and the babies are ok." Says nathan.

"The three of us are fine. Now let's get this over with." I say.

I get out the car and start walking to the entrance. Nathan gets Lily out and then catches up with me. Once we're inside, I go straight to reception.

"Hi. My names Harper Montgomery. I've been experiencing lower back pains. I'm 8 months pregnant and my husband here has advised me to come in." I say.

"Ok. If you want to sit over there, I'll bring over some papers and then we can take you for an ultrasound." Says the receptionist.

We wait about 15 minutes before the woman brings us some papers. I fill them out, then 10 minutes after that, I'm taken to a room for an ultrasound.

"Ok. So your notes say you've been experiencing lower back pains, is this correct?" Asks the doctor.

"Yes. They only started today, but they were painful and my husband wanted to bring me in." I say.

"Ok. If you can lay back and pull you top up." Says the doctor.

I do as I'm told and the doctor squirts the gel on my stomach. He starts to move the ultrasound stuck around until he locates the babies.

"Ok. How many months pregnant are you?" Asks the doctor.

"8 months." I say.

"Ok. You babies should be head down, but they are looking as if they are coming feet first. If they don't turn, then we will have to perform a cesarean." Says the doctor.

"Cant I just give birth naturally even if they are both feet first?" I ask.

"Harper. It would be too much. With your babies in this position, a cesarean is probably the best and safest way to bring them into the world." Says the doctor.

"Ok. Thank you." I say.

I wipe the gel off my stomach and then pull my top down. We leave the hospital and go home. When we get in, I sit on the couch and watch t.v, not saying a word to anyone.

"Harper. Do you want anything?" Asks Nathan.

"Yes. I want these babies to turn! Otherwise, I'm gonna be left with a huge scar on my stomach. You will think I'm disgusting. You probably already think that because of my stretch marks. I just want to be thin again!" I say.

"Harper Montgomery. I think you are beautiful with our without stretch marks. With or without a scar on your stomach." Says Nathan.

"Nathan. Stop sounding so cringe and cliché!" I say.

"Look. They will turn. I'll look up some ways to make that happen." Says Nathan.

"Is Lily sleeping?" I ask.

"Yes. She fell asleep on the way back from the hospital." Says Nathan.

"Ok. Sophie and Charlie are wriggling." I say.

Nathan comes over and sits next to me again. He puts his hands on my stomach. I rest my head on his shoulder. He vets up when Lily starts crying.

"Seriously. She's two years old. She shouldn't be crying when she wakes up." I say.

"Thats the thing. She's two." Says Nathan

Nathan leaves the room and see's to Lily. He comes back after the house goes silent. I lay on my side on the sofa and then rest one hand on my stomach whilst I lay on my other arm.

"Nathan." I say.

"Yeah?" Asks Nathan.

"Do you think we'll be able to handle two newborns and a two year old?" I ask.

"Yes. I mean. If you were able to handle me and Lily, then you can handle two more." Says Nathan.

"But you weren't there for the first few months." I say.

"I know. I will be here for the twins. I promise." Says Nathan.

"NATHAN!" I shout.

"Yeah?" Asks Nathan.

"Weren't you meant to go back to the army 2 months ago?" I ask.

"Yeah. That was the plan, but I sort of asked the captain if I could take an extra 3 off for the twins. He granted permission. He is asking that I go back for 3 months and then I can come back for 2 weeks." Says Nathan.

"So I'm going to struggle with the kids for the first few months after they are born?" I ask.

"Once they are born. I will talk to the captain, ask for 2 weeks and then go back. I know it seems like I'm leaving you, but I promise I will be there. Just like I was there with Lily." Says Nathan.