Living as a UnHealthy teen

My Mom...

10/29/17

Before anyone's asks me I havent heard from Tyler... I mean I got a message from a random number but no ones answerd since I have been messageing it so idk...

          So I figured I would go ahead and talk about this because I did put it in my fear thing.

     Um... yes I am afraid of my mom dying. My mom is not the healthiest person. She has anxiety,she doesn't eat like she should, she's depressed,she get dizzy and almost passes out like me, she has high cholesterol, and she smokes.

       Now smoking in my family is somewhat normal. Half of my family smoke the others don't it's 50 50 but there's a case where my mom shouldn't smoke. The doctor told her that she is a walking heart attack. (And smoking already isn't healthy) And she's still smoking not any less than what she was.

      My mom is also a carrier for apolostisic kidney disease. Which she passed down to me. She didn't have it she just passed it down to me . If I haven't said this already I'm saying it now I can't have pop or tea or really anything carbonated. I do however drink monster which is one of the worst things I could have but I drink it it's my life if I end it I end it. Now I am not saying killing yourself is ok that's Not what I'm saying. I restrict myself,really I drink one or two every two months.

       Dose that make it ok ? No it doesn't it could still probably put me in the hospital which is kind of ironic because I'm also afraid of being stuck in a hospital.

       There will eventually be a entry about My Health... incase I haven't said everything it will be in that chapter ok... Anyway stay strong love you guys BYYYYYEEEE!!!! BITCHES!!!!!!