All On Contract

Chapter 136 - Lost And Broken

Marshall's P.O.V:
I stop the car and kill of the engine before I unclips my belt and take out the keys. I reach for the door handle and open the door as I look back at Tessa, only to find her still in her seat with her knees pulled up against her chest.

"Tessa." I call her but get no answer from her. I close the door again and wait for her to do or say something but she stays quiet as she stares up at our home. "It's late baby and you're probably tired. Let's go inside." I say softly.

Tessa keeps her eyes fixed on our mansion. I place my keys on the dash board and lean back in my seat as I turn a little to face her. I let out a sigh before I speak.

"I know what you're going through and I know how you feel." I say and watch her move back slightly before she turns to face the other way. "I went through the same thing with Ronnie." I add and get nothing out of her.

"You don't know what i'm going through." She whispers after a couple of minutes.

"Actually....I do." I say. "Ronnie...He...Meant the world to me. We did everything together and when he died I...I felt like I couldn't breath." I say. "It felt like then world ended and my family moved on so quickly and it pissed me off. Everyone moved on whilst I was still crying over him." I add.

"I'm sorry about Ronnie." She says without looking at me. "But there's a huge difference between how we both felt or feel. I didn't just lose one person that I loved, I lost two." She says and turns to face me. "So stop comparing yourself to me." She adds, taking me by suprise. "I don't want to talking about them being gone again." She adds before she unclips her seat belt.

"It helps to talk about your feelings." I say quickly before she can get out of the car.

"Did you talk about your feelings when Ronnie died?" She raises her brow, making me let out a sigh. "That's what I thought." She adds. "I'm trying to move on. I'm trying to carry on and you and my brothers and everyone else is making it hard for me to do that so just...Stop. I don't have time to mourn." She says, leaving me stunned.

Tessa gets out of the car and closes the door behind herself. I watch her walk up to our home. I let out a sigh and get out of my car before I follow Tessa inside.

"Mr Mathers. Good to have you back sir." One of the guard says. It's been almost three weeks since i've been away.

Ryder and Iris are with Andrew and will fly back to Detroit this weekend with Nicklaus. Tessa wouldn't stay in California. I begged her to but she wouldn't listen.

I nod at the guard and walk past him and inside. I stop in the foyer and look around at all the flowers that are crowding the foyer. I look up at Tessa and watch her make her way up.

I take off my jacket and follow her up slowly. I watch her make her way towards her room before she pushes it open. Before she walks in, she turns around to face me.

"I think it's best if I stay in my own room for a while." She says, making me walk towards her. I watch her walk into her room before she turns around to face me. "On my own." She adds and closes the door halfway. "Goodnight." She mumbles and closes the door.

***

I blow smoke out of my mouth as Nick sits down on the hood of his car. I hand him the lighter and look around for any sign of papparazi or fans but find none. It's freezing outside, of course no one would be here.

"California?" Nick says, making me turn to face him. He places the cigarette between his lips as he shakes his head. "What is she, crazy? She can't go back there." He talks with his hand with the cigarette still between his lips before he shakes us head and lights it up.