L Lawliet x reader head-canon oneshots 2 • DEATH NOTE [COMPLETED]

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Warning: triggering content. also has anyone played seduce me? I just remit existed and now I want to play Erik's route again. If so who's your fav? It's hard to find other SM fans

Head canon: if you were to find L suicidal, you'd hand cuff yourself too him to make sure he didn't try anything.

You'd locked the medicine cabinet, you'd emptied the cutlery drawers, thrown out any rope you could find, thrown out lighters, taken the taps off the bath, any weapon you could find was burned, you got rid of all the cleaning chemicals and poisons, you'd nailed the door to the roof shut, there was no way he could try.

Especially not when you'd chained yourself to him.

You were doing everything you could to keep L from ending it all, knowing he was so close to it. Anything dangerous or anything that could be used as an attempt was taken care off, and now that you literally chained yourself to him, if he tried to run into traffic or jump from something, he'd take you with him, and you knew he wouldn't want you dead. That and you can keep an eye on him 24/7. You weren't going to let him out if your sight when he was this fragile.

You hated seeing him like this, he'd been depressed for almost his whole life, you knew that, but he was at the tipping point.

Watari knew it too, he helped you get rid of any means of threat, he'd been trying as hard as he could to get L to see a therapist but he just wouldn't go.

Right now he was having a really bad episode, he just sat there, in the dark, not saying anything and starring out the window like he was in some kind of dramatic movie. You kept you eyes on him, as you sat by the computer, the cold metal of the handcuff pressing against your wrist. L was probably trying to figure out some way to end it, work a way around your precautions.

But he knew you'd do anything to stop him, if he tried to use his clothes as a noose, you'd strip him and burn his clothes. If he tried to bite his tongue, you'd put a bandage in his mouth and tie it to his head so he couldn't bite. If he tried to starve himself, you'd force feed him. If he tried to break his skull against a wall, you'd pad the walls and stop him by literally wrapping your whole body around him. If he tried to suffocate himself you'd put a gas mask over his mouth and force air into his throat. There was no way around it, but he so badly wanted the pain to stop.

Of course he didn't want to leave you, but he didn't want to suffer either.

He felt nothing anymore, there was no point to living.

No family, no childhood, no happiness. All he had was a lie, the life of 3 different detectives all at once.

He never got to be Lawliet.

Only L

Coil

And deneve.

"L" you said, trying to make conversation.

"Don't call me that"

He was becoming sick of 'L' sure, that was his name, but this whole detective thing corrupted it.

You were confused. Don't call him by his own name?

"Huh? I don't understand?"

"I-it doesn't matter..."

You thought for a moment, before getting it upon remembering his legacy that drove him into this headspace.

You stood up, sitting on the seat by the window with him.

"You know I'm doing this for your own good right? I know why you're distancing yourself from me. But I'm doing this so you don't make a mistake" you said.