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Chapter 46

Lydia's POV
I woke up. As I remembered what happened I started to cry. I got out of my bed. Walked to the bathroom. I saw a shiny blue razor laying on the counter. As I remembered what happened to me. I cried. I grabbed the razor from the counter and held it to my wrists. I started to bring it down lower. It was on my skin. As fast and as deep as I could I glided down. Blood dripping from my wrist to the floor. I grabbed it again. Held it down this time deeper. I glided it down my wrist. This time hurting more. I cried as I remember when I first did it. Cried because if that and cried because of today. Blood dripping down my wrists. I walked out the bathroom and down the stairs. I heard sobbing as I looked to the boys who were crying there eyes out. A sob escaped my moth. The boys turned there head to me. "Your alive!" Niall yelled. Not for long I hoped. "Yeah I am" I said. I looked down to my arm blood dripping from my wrist and onto the floor. I ran to the kitchen. I started looking for the medicine in the cabinets. "Fuck they aren't in here" I said. I ran to the bathroom. I grabbed a bottle of pain relievers. I took 3 hoping it will get rid of the pain. "Lydia what are you doing" zayn said. I shoved the pills Down my throat. "Nothing" I said. "Fuck this hurts" I said. I walked out the bathroom the boys standing looking at me. My wrist still bleeding. It dropped to the floor. "Lydia" Louis said "yeah" I said "why is your arm bleeding" I said "nothing" I said "let me see" Liam said. I hesitated for a moment but then I gave him my arm. He picked it up. I winced In pain. "Why would you do this to yourself" he said. He started to cry but I was already crying "I needed a way to escape from the pain" I said "Lydia but why" Louis said "Adam and Harry" I said "that's why" I said again. I cried more this time. Zayn grabbed me in a hug. "Please don't cry" he said. The boys cried with me. "I'm sorry" I said. My arm still bleeding. "Let's get that cleaned. Shall we?" Niall said "yeah" I said. They all walked to the bathroom. I followed behind. I went to sit down on the counter. Liam grabbed some alcohol and some cotton balls. Niall grabbed bandages. "Oh fuck no! That's gonna hurt!" I said. The boys laughed. "It'll help the cut though" Louis said "fine but someone hold my hand" I said. Zayn and Louis grabbed my hand both of them. "Ready?" Liam asked "ready" I said. Liam poured some alcohol on a cotton ball and started cleaning the cuts. "Ouch" I said "don't be a baby" Liam said "wahhhhhhh wahhhhh wahhhhh" I said. The boys started laughing. "Okay I'm don't cleaning your cuts. Niall started wrapping them up. "Thank you guys" I said "Your welcome but you have to tell us what happened with Adam" zayn said "and Harry" Louis said "okay I will" I said. We walked out of the bathroom. I looked at my arm, blood started bleeding through. Gosh my arm hurt. They had bruises on them from how hard adam grabbed my wrists. We started walking downstairs. I went to go sit down. Zayn and Louis next time me. Niall and Liam sitting the opposite of us. I took a deep breath. The boys looked at me. I looked at them. Wondering if they will get mad or not. "So today me and Harry were all loving to each other and holding hands. We didn't have class next period but we walked with each other. All of a sudden that girl comes up and starts talking to him and touching him. Harry didn't care because I walked away. I went to my next class. Did the same old thing. Then lunch came and that's when I asked if you guys seen Harry. you guys didn't. We started walking to lunch and that when I caught him kissing them same girl. Then I ran off. I went to my locker to grab my backpack. Adam was there.  He said "hey baby" I just ignored it. I pack my back pack shut my locker and dropped my back pack on the floor. Adam was coming towards me and that when my back hit the locker and I couldn't move anymore back. I told him to stay away from me but he said he wasn't going to. He grabbed me by my waist and said he's going to get what he want. I asked what he wanted and he said me. I was still crying from the shit with Harry. I told him fuck you. He said not to talk to him like that. He keeps calling me baby and I told him not to. I called him an asshole. I felt his hand on the side of my thigh. He started moving his hand upwards and to the inner part of my thigh. I told him to stop like twice. I tried wiggling out of his grip. I called him a sick fuck and that when I felt him slap me. Hard across the face. I told him fuck you and he said as you wish. The when my back came down and touched the floor. I asked him to get off of me twice. He said he just wanted to have fun. I told him I didn't wanna have fun. I tried my hardest wiggling out of his grip. He just looked at me enjoying the view of my crying face. He pinned each of my arms to the sides of my head. I asked him to let me go.  I asked him to get off of me twice again. That's when someone shouted for him to get off of me. That's when I grabbed my wrist in pain. Cried and then blacked out" I said to them. I was looking at my wrist and crying. I looked up they started crying. "Guys please don't cry" I said  "I'm sorry" Niall said "Niall it wasn't your fault" I said "it wasn't but we weren't there to protect you" Liam said "guys i don't know what to do" I said. "It's okay were here for y-" Liam was cut off by a knock on the door. "I'll answer it" I said. I got up and answered the door. I couldn't believe who was standing there.