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Chapter 54

As I close my eyes and fall into a nap everything changes. I'm breathing heavy. Everything is dark and cold. "Hello" i say. Nobody answers "hello is anybody here!" I scream. "Boys" i say. I hear footsteps behind me. I turn around to see someone dressed in black running behind me. I start running. "Stop following me please!" I say. I reach the couch. Before I'm able to turn around in tackled on the couch. "Stop!" I say "please!" I say again. The hand that is holding a knife. Goes down to my wrist. He cuts the bandage of and traces his finger over my stitches. Before I say anything he presses down. "Aggggghhhh!" I scream. The person in black watching in amusement. "That hurts!" I scream. I'm crying so hard. He moves his knife and cuts one off "agggh!" I scream. "Stop!" I say. I feel myself being shaken in my sleep. "Wake up!"Someone says. They shake me again. This time I'm woken up. My face stained with tears. I look up to see that it Louis. Crying himself. "He got me" i say crying. "Please stop crying"Louis says. I only noticed Louis but the other boys were there to. I crash my face into his chest. I get up from my bed and run downstairs. "Lydia!" Someone scream voice sounds like zayn. "Lydia!" They scream. I slip on my shoes and run outside. I run to the park the boys took me to. It's just me by myself. Alone. I start crying. Thinking about what happened. The dreams are fake but what happens with Adam they felt so real. I start walking back home only to hear a car stop. I keep walking. I hear footsteps behind me. Getting louder and louder. I start running. The footsteps start getting louder. I start running only to my arm being grabbed. "Stop! I just wanna go home to my brother,my two best friends and my boyfriend!" I say crying "please let me go!" I say. I'm trying to get out of the strong grip. "Please" I say soft. "I just wanna go home" I say. I cry harder this time. "Lydia would you stop!" The voice says. I stop but turn around slowly and scared. I see the face of my best friend. Zayn. "I'm sorry" I say crying. I cry into his chest. "Shhh...Lydia it's okay. Don't cry" he says. I calm myself. I look up at him. "I'm sorry I just I needed to be alone. I was scared and crying and" I say but am at a lose of words "I just I wanna go home" I say "let's go home then" he says. I get into the car. Zayn starts to drive. "The boys are worried about you" zayn says "Louis has been crying, Harry has  been blaming himself,  Liam and Niall are worrying about you, I got up and came looking for you. There was no way I was gonna let my best friend be here alone" he says "thank you zayn for everything" I say " your welcome" he says. We pull into the parking lot of my house. I tense up. "It's okay there not mad" zayn says "okay" I say. I get out of the car. I start walking to the door. My breathing getting heavy. Zayn right behind me. "I'm scared" I say soft and low "it's okay" he says "I will be right here for you" he says "okay thank you" I say "no problem love" he says. I take a deep breathe. I place my hand on the door nob. I look back at zayn. He gives me a smile and a nod, I smile and nod back at him. I twist the door nob and walk into the house. The boys looked straight at the door. Before I know it I'm tackled in a group hug. "Where were you?" Liam asks. He had tears in his eyes. "At the park" I say. "I was really worried about you" he says "I know and I'm sorry" I say. I look at Louis he had tears running down his face. "Hi" I say. I look at him crying which makes my eyes fill up. Before I know it tears are running down my face. "I'm sorry" I say "it's okay. I'm sorry I wasn't there" he says. I give him the most biggest and tightest and longest hug ever. "I didn't mean to hurt you guys any of you" I say. I realized there were only two 3 boys. Louis,Liam and zayn. "We're is Niall and Harry" I say "up stairs" Liam says. "I'm scared to go up there" I say  "it's okay there more sad,scared and worried than mad" Louis says "I'm just I hurt them I hurt you guys" I say "it's okay just go up there and talk to them" Liam says "okay" I say. I smile at them,take a deep breathe and walk up the stairs. As I'm making my way up stairs I hear talking and crying. Fuck what did I do. I walk to my room. No ones in there. I walk to Liam's room no  ones there. I walk to Niall's and that where I hear crying and talking. I take a deep breath. I knock on the door. The door swings open. I look at the blond haired boy in front of me,face red,tears streaming down his face. "I'm sorry" I say my voice cracking. I'm grabbed into a big hug. My brother crying in my shoulder. "I didn't mean to hurt you" I say crying. "Lydia" another voice says. I turn around and look at my curly haired, eyes red from crying, boyfriend in front of me. "I'm sorry" I say to him. I walk into the room and sit down on his bed. "I'm sorry I got up and ran. I shouldn't have done that. I hurt you guys. I'm sorry" I say. Tears fall down my face. "No it's my fault I hurt you and your still hurt by me hurting you. It's all my fault" Harry says "no it's my fault I'm sorry Lydia" Niall says "it's nun of your guises fault. I've hurt you all in so many different ways and I'm sorry" I say "nope it's my fault I'm sorry" Harry says and walks out of the room.