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Chapter 50

Harry and zayn came to come sit by me on the couch. Liam, Niall and Louis sitting on the floor in front of us. I started feeling my eyes close . I fixed myself on the couch. I laid  my feet on zayn and my head on Harry's lap. Harry had his arms on me as zayn had is hands on my legs. I layer there. My eyes closed and just like that I feel into a peaceful slumber. In my sleep I felt someone playing with my hair. Then I heard someone scream. "Wtf!" I yell. I open my eyes. The living room dark. No one in there. "Guys!" I yell "hello!" I yell. My voice starts to eco. I get go from the couch. As I get up. The floor is wet. "Who spilled water" I say. I clean it up. I go to put the towel down. As I walk back I feel someone push me. I didn't know who it was. They were dressed in black. Had a hoodie on. The had a knife in there hands. As the knife was lowering down I screamed. "Aggggghhh!" I screamed. "Noooooo!" I screamed again. I felt me being shaken. "Lydia wake up!" Someone said. I woke up. I hit my head on someone. "Ouch!" Someone said. I looked over. Harry was holding his face. "I'm sorry" I said "you okay" Niall asked "you were having a bad dream"Louis said "yeah I'm fine" I said. I looked over at zayn. He smiled at me and I returned it back to him. "You okay" I asked Harry "yeah but that hurt" he said "I'm sorry" I said "were does it hurt" I asked. He pointed to his cheek. I kissed his cheek. "And here"he said pointing to his nose. I kissed his nose. "And here" he said pointing to his lips. I kissed his lips soft. "Mine to" Louis said "same here" zayn said. I started laughing. "Is anyone hungry" I asked as I got up from the couch. "I am" Niall says "me two" Liam says "me three"zayn says "me four"Louis says "me five" Harry says. "What should we get" I asked "what do you want" they asked "pizza?" I asked in a questioning tone "I'm up for it"they all said. I grabbed my phone to dial the pizza guy. "Hello we would like 2 medium pepperoni pizzas please" I asked the guy. I got off the phone. "Okay it'll be here in 16/20 minutes" I say to the guys. I go up to my room and grab my money.only 20 dollars. I walk back downstairs and wait for the guy to come. "Let's watch  high school musical. I'm in the mood" I say "okay which one" Harry asks "umm the second one" I say. I go to sit down on the couch. Before I sit myself down the door rings. I walk to the door. "Hello!" A cheerful and peaceful voice says "hello" I say back "here are you pizzas ma'am" the gentleman says "thank you very much sir " I say "call me David" David said "thank you so much David" I say. He hands me the pizzas. "That'll be 20 dollars ma'am" David says "please call me lydia" I say to David. I hand him the money. "Thank you Lydia have a nice day" David says "thank you David and you to" I say. I wave him off. I shut the door behind me and walk to the kitchen. "What was that" a voices said loud that it made me jump. "Fuck You scared  me  Harry . Don't do that" I say "I'm gonna ask again. What was that Lydia" he says "it's was nothing" I said "It didn't look like nothing. You guys were flirting is what it looks like" he says "Harry I don't need this right now" I say "Lydia you were flirting with the guy" he raises his voice at me "for God's sake Harry I just got out of the hospital with cuts that are on my wrists. Having bad dreams with what happened today. A nice guy shows up to hand me our pizza and I return the favor and you call that flirting!" I yell at him. I'm crying at the time. When Louis  comes in. "What all the shouting f-" Louis says but didn't Finnish his when he seen me crying. "Lydia what happens" he asked me "why don't you ask Harry" I say and storm out of the kitchen. "Lydia you okay" Niall asks "Lydia" Liam says. I keep walking "Lydia!" Zayn yells. I run up to my room. I fall to my bed letting out sobs. I hear shouting coming  from the living room. I open my door to hear Liam and Niall and Harry going at it. "Why would you accuse her of flirting when she was being nice!" Liam yells "she's up there crying Harry!" Niall says "fuck!" Harry yells. I walk back down to see Harry with tears in his eyes. "Stop yelling please" I say. The boys turn around not knowing I was there until I spoke up. "I'm sorry. I fuck everything up Lydia" Harry says. He grabs his keys and walks out the door. I will in my shoes. "Harry!" I scream. He keeps walking "Harry please stop!" I yell. I was still crying. He turns around. He sees that I have tears in my eyes. He runs up to me and hugs me tight. I cry hard into his chest living a wet spot on his shirt. "Baby I'm sorry" he says "no I'm sorry" he says "nope I've hurt you bad. I hurt you by kissing a girl. I hurt you by not being there when Adam almost took advantage of you. I hurt you by accusing you of flirting when you weren't" he says breaking down crying. I back away looking at my curly haired  boyfriend with tears rolling down his face like a water fountain. "Let's not fight no more please baby" he says "okay" I say. I give him a big hug and a soft and passionate kiss. I start walking back inside. I enter the house. Leaving Harry outside. I walk inside. "You alright" zayn asks "yeah I just.......I can't lose him. He's everything to me. Yes he messed up big time but I love him so much a can't lose him. Him and you guys are the only reason I'm still here and alive. Yes I tried taking that away but I realized that you guys would be nothing without me. Niall would be nothing with out Me. You guys would be a mess without me" I say "your not gonna lose me" someone says. I go to turn around but only have a pair of soft plumed lips against mine.  A couple 'awes" We're heard from the boys mouths. We stoped kissing. I still had tears in my eyes as Harry did himself. "I'm sorry I never wanna hurt you again" he says "shh baby you won't" I say. I looked at himself and went to go sit down on the couch. "Just don't mess up" Niall says "I'll try not to Niall" Harry says. The boys all hugged Harry. Zayn and Liam  sitting on the couch with me. I started to play high school musical 2. "Hazza! Stop!" Louis says "oh Louis shut up!" I say. " It sounds like your fucking my boyfriend or more like him fucking you"I say while looking at him. The boys start laughing. Same as me. "That not fare Lydia Harry was mine before he met you"Louis says. I stand up and walk to him. I cup his cheeks. "Oh Lou. Your just jelouse that Harry is In love with me than he is with you" I say. Louis tackles me down on the floor. He holds my arms on each side of my head. "Let me go Lou your hurting my wrist" I say. I let out a squeal. He press his arm down more as I let out a hurtful squeal  from my mouth. A tear escapes from my eye. "Louis that really hurts" I say. I look at my wrist. "Lou it's starting to bleed!" I yell. "Louis Get off of her, her arm is starting to bleed!" Liam yells. He lest go as I start to cry in pain. "Seriously Lou look at her. She has tears coming down her face!" Zayn yells. "Oh fuck Lydia I'm sorry I was just playing around with you" he says "it's okay Lou" I say. "You would never hurt a fly so I know you didn't mean to hurt me" I say through painful tears. "We should check that out" Louis says. I seen him look at his hand. "Oh mother of apples I have blood on my hand" he says "oh god" I say "what" Niall says "what's wrong" Liam  says "I don't feel so good" I say. I walk up to the bathroom. The boys follow behind. "Help me check this out would you" I ask zayn "yeah sure" zayn says. I go sit down on the counter. "Ready" zayn  says "yes" I say. He starts to unravel the bandages that are around my wrist. The bloody bandage comes off. There's goz on it to protect it. Zayn takes that off but before it comes off. I look away. "That's gross" someone says. I realize the thick accent as my boyfriend Harry's. " you should see it lydia" Niall says. I open my eyes and turn  my head a little bit. I look down and there's at least 10/15 stitches in that cut and 6/7 in the other one. "Why'd I do it" I say "im so stupid. Why'd did I cut myself"I say again "because I hurt you" Harry says and looks down. I turn and look at him. The boys looking at me and him, eyes moving back and forth. "Hey" I say. I get no answer from him. "Hey! Look at me!" I say. He turns around. Our eyes looking in to each others eyes as we stare at each other. "Stop beating yourself up for it. It's not your fault. Plus I get the stitches out in 2 weeks" I say "yeah but I hurt you  Lydia and you still decide to take me back after everything I've done" he says. Tears fading to come out of his eyes.  "yeah I do. Maybe I shouldn't but I do. Wanna know why?" I say. He doesn't say anything but I speak up "Harry it's because I love you. I love you with every single bone i have in my body. Nobody can take that away. I love you Harry and I mean it" I say. He comes and gives me a hug. He gives me a gentle kiss on the lips. I look at him and then back at zayn. "Zayn you can finish if you want to" I say "okay" he says. He grabs a wash cloth. He dabs it with alcohol. He start to Dabs  my cuts. I winced a few times at the stinging sensation but I was used to it. He grabbed some goz Puts  it over my cuts and Grabs  a new bandage since the old one was covered in blood. He grabs the new one, opens it up and starts to wrap it around my wrist. Once he was done I started to feel sleepy. "Thank you zayn" I say "no problem love" he says. I smile at him and he returns it back. The day flew by. The boys at the pizza. I ate one slice, since I wasn't that hungry. Liam gave me my medicine before I ate so I think I'm good. I say. It was time for the boys to go home. " thank you for everything you've done for me today guys I appreciate it. I love you all so very much" I says. The boys gave me a hug and kiss goodbye. "Bye baby I will see you tomorrow and are you coming to school" Harry asks "I don't know. But if I do you will see me if I don't just know I'm in bed resting" I say "okay but text me if you need anything. Love you goodbye and goodnight princess" he says. Gosh  I melt at his sense of nicknames for me. "I will, love you and goodnight" I say. I give him a kiss. I wave him off and shut the door behind me.