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Chapter 58

I smile at the boys and they smile back. "So what are you guys gonna do the rest of the day" I ask "nothing really" they all say "oh that's nice" I say. I start to laugh. "Why are you laughing" Harry asks "I don't know maybe because I want to" I say "sorry it's just bad mood/different moods  when I'm on my period" I say "it's okay babe I have a sister so I know" harry says "wait you have a sister" I say "mhm" he says in response "wow I never knew that" I say "yeah that what our date is on Saturday. We're going to go to a nice restaurant with my family" he say "oh" I say "yeah" he says back. I look down at the floor. "Hey Liam can we talk" i say "yeah" he says back. I get up and walk to the kitchen Liam following behind. "So you remember what we were talking about 2/3 weeks ago" I say "about my wrist and the only way I escaped from the pain" I say "yeah I remember" he says "you think I should still tell the guys" I say "I think so yea but it's up to you. Dont feel pressured" he says "I'm not and I think I will" I say. I feel scared. "Whenever your ready come back out" he say. I shake my head. He walk out. I follow behind. "Hey guys" I say. They look at me. I look at Liam and he shakes his head yes. "Okay it's time for me to be honest with you guys" I say "okay" Niall says. "So you know when I moved here. How you guys asked me what was the way I escaped from the pain and I said cutting" I say. They shake there head yes "well it's not just one or two cuts I say it's 14" I say "well now it's 14 because of the two I gave myself" I say "Lydia I know. I seen your wrist the first time you gave your self the last two cuts. I just didn't say anything" Louis says "yeah me neither" zayn says "yeah me neither" Niall says. "I noticed the other day I just didn't wanna bring it up" Harry says "well there faded away but the two I gave myself are visible" I say "yeah we know"Liam says "well I'm glade I can talk to you guys about this stuff" I say "I'm glade you talk to us about this stuff to" Louis says "I love you guys" I say "we love you to" they all say. I smile at them and they smile back. Gosh what would I do without these guys. I love them so much. My family forever. I start to cry. "I have to go to the bathroom" I say. I get up and run to the bathroom. I shut the door behind me and start to cry silently. A knock is heard "Lydia you okay in there" someone says. I open the door. Zany's standing there. "Why are you crying" he asks "I'm full of emotion" I say "come here" he says. He gives me a hug. "What's going on here" someone says. I turn around it's Harry. "He's just giving me a hug cause I'm crying stupid" I say "are you sure because that's not what it looks like" harry says "oh please" I say. I walk back downstairs. "What the hell were you doing"Harry yells "crying Harry. That's what I was doing" I yell. "Woah what's going on" Liam says "nothing" I say "I told you guys I was going to the bathroom but really I was crying in the bathroom. Zayn came to check on me. He hugged me because I was crying. That's what was going on Harry" I say to him "gosh I hate you so much right now" I say "gosh I'm so fucking sorry. I didn't mean any of this" harry says "it's okay" I say "you should like try to ask me what's wrong before you jump to conclusions of me cheating on you" I say to Harry. He looks at me. "Yeah maybe I should I'm just o-" He says but I cut him off  "over protective I know. That's what I love about you" I say to him. He gives me a hug. "You guys good" zayn asks "yeah are you" I ask him. He shakes his head yes. I give him a hug. "I'm tired guys By the way it's pretty late to so" I say "yeah it is" Liam says. The boys nod there head in agreement. "I'm gonna get going" Louis says "okay" I say "zayn you need a ride" he ask "yeah" he says "okay guys we're gonna leave" they says okay. I smile at them and give them a hug and kiss goodnight. "Text me when you get home" I say. They smile and nod there heads. I wave them off. "Im gonna go" harry says "okay" I say to him. He tell the boys bye. I walk him to the door. "I love you" he says "I love you and text me when you get home okay" I say "okay love you" he says. He gives me a kiss. I wave him off. "Are you sure your okay" Liam asks "I don't know" I say "well if you need us  just come talk to us" Niall says "okay" I say "I'm gonna go to bed love you" Niall and Liam say  "okay love you to and goodnight" I say. They walk up to there rooms. I'm alone in the living room. I walk to the door and lock it. Walk to the windows and lock them. Shut the tv off. Walk to the kitchen and shut the light off,lock the window and back door. I walk up to my room. Change into my pajamas. I walk to my moms room. Everything's locked up. I walk to Liam's he's asleep. I lock his window,shut off his light. I walk to Niall's room. Lock his window and shut off his light. I walk back to my room. My phone is ringing. It's Louis.

"Hey Lydia" Louis says
"Hey Lou. What's up" I say
"Nothing I just wanted to tell you I'm home,safe, that  I love you and goodnight" he says
"Thank you Louis I love you and goodnight" I say
"Love you more and goodnight"he says
"Love you and goodnight" I say
"Night" he  say
The phone  hangs up. That was a weird call. I'm glad he's home and safe. I have 3 new messages from Harry and zayn.

Harry:"I'm home and safe babe. I'm gonna go to bed love you goodnight" he says
Me: "love you and goodnight" I say

Zayn: "I'm home and safe. I love you goodnight" he says
Me: "can I call you?" I ask
Zayn: "sure" he says

I start to call zayn.

"What's up" he ask
"Nothing I just wanted to make sure That your really okay. You didn't look okay before you left" I say
"I just I hate when he talks to you like that Lydia. I'm just I'm protective and I hate when guys talk to girls like that I mean. He hurt you more than twice Lydia. I just I hate when he talks to you  like that" he says
"I know and I'm sorry you had to hear him talk to me the way he did. I love you zayn and I don't want you to leave looking mad the way you did" I say "I want you to feel safe" I say again
"Lydia I am safe and I know. I'm tired I love you goodnight" he says
"I love you to Goodnight"I say
The phone hangs up. I put it on the charger. I lock my window. I walk downstairs to get some water "what the fuck! " I say "damnit Liam you scared me" I say "I'm sorry Lydia" he says "it's okay" I say "can't sleep" I ask " no I'm just thirsty" he says "oh" I say. I walk to the cabinit to get a cup. I pour some water. "Imma go to bed love you" he says "me too and love you" I say. He walks up stairs. I pour some more water. I walk up to my room. I set my water on my dresser. I walk to my bed and climb under my covers. I Take one more drink.  I close my eyes. I think about my family. Just like that I fall into a peaceful slumber.