Billionaire's Childhood Love

LVIII. The Truth

Hailey's POV:

When we got into the dormitory room, it was completely quiet. Ricardo left to do whatever it is that he usually does. Josh and I unpacked our stuff. When he finished, he took his duffle bag and stuff it inside the closet.

I sneezed.

I waited for some sort of blessing.

Nothing.

He places some souviers on his desk, most likely for his brother. Then, I saw it from the corner of my eyes - the pink bag from earlier. He grabs it and threw it in the trash can then left the room.

When the door slam, I flinch slightly at the aggression.

I lower the shirt and made my way towards the trashcan. I lift the bag up and open it. Inside was all type of sweet, my favorites. I walk back towards my bed and grab a piece of candy.

Then, there it was.

Each piece had some type of writing on it.

Don't be mad.

I would've told you if I had a girlfriend!

I want to sit with you.

I'm sad.

Joshie Pooh is upset.

I smile when I saw the little pictures he drew on the back of the candy.

I held the candy tightly in my palm.

I know I'm allowing my self-esteem to intrude between us. I know I'm throwing a fit. I wipe the tears from my cheek. I wish I could be stronger, but I couldn't.

Because Ricardo is right.

I do feel like I'm not good enough.

Every time, I tried to be better, I manage to only feel worse.

I thought that moving to a new place would make me feel better, but it didn't. All I did was run away from everyone who pushed me down. And now each day, I'm reminded why Hailey Vaughn is not good enough for Joshua Greyson.

I want to catch up with him.

But, he's so far away.

I forced myself to lose weight.

I forced myself to study harder.

I forced myself to make friends.

But, no matter what I do, it never felt like its enough.

Enough for me to say - I deserve to be Joshua's Greyson's girlfriend.

There are moments when I want to confess, but then the thoughts of what if appears.

What if he doesn't like you the same way as you like him?

What if he does accept your emotions, then realizes you're not good enough?

What if you two do get together, but one day he'll find someone else?

Then what?

You guys can't go back to being friends.

Then, there it is. That sensation. I clutch my stomach and cover my mouth. The gagging sound left my throat and instantly, I rush towards the toilet. I dangle my head inside and threw up the content.

I press my hands against my head and beat it a few times to decrease the stinging sensation. Inhaling a deep breath, I flushed the content and rinsed my mouth.

Pretend nothing happened.

I should go talk to Josh.

It's hot.