We were both young when I first saw you. I close my eyes and the flashback starts. I'm standin' there, on a balcony in summer air.
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After Adam's partens died, he's forced to marry a man named John. He's abusive and he gets pregnant. But his baby...
We were on the way back when I saw a guy jump from a cliff. "Omg, did you see that?" I asked shocked. "They cliff diving, scary as hell, but also fun." They think they run the place. Embry use to call them "Hall monitors on steroids. Now look at him." said Jacob. "That's Embry?" I asked. "Yeah." said Jake. "What happened to him?" I asked.
"He started missing school, then all of a sudden he started following Sam around like a little puppy. Same thing happened with Paul and Jared. And Sam keeps giving me this look like he's waiting for me or something. It's kinda staring to freak me out." said Jacob. "Well, you should just avoid him." I replied. "I try." said Jake and I saw the worry in his eyes.
When we came back I tried to ride a motorcycle, but I saw shadows of Adam along the way and I lost the control. I fell off and hit my head in a stone.
"What the hell Oliver." said Jacob. "I'll do it again." I replied. "No forget it, no more bike, oh man, your head." he said. "Oh my god, I'm sorry." I replied. "You're apologizing for bleeding?" asked Jacob. "Yeah, I guess I am." I said. "Well it's just blood Oliver, no big deal." he replied. Jacob took off his shirt and placed against my head. I couldn't stop looking at him. "What're you staring at?" he asked. "You're sort of beautiful." I said. "How hard did you hit your head?" he asked. "I don't know." I said. He smiled and helped me up.
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Dear Alice, I wish I had your real address. I wish I could tell you about Jake. He makes me feel better. I mean, he makes me feel alive. The hole in my chest... well, when I'm with Jake it's like it's almost healed for a while. But even Jake can't keep the dreams apart.
I was lying on my bed and stared at the ceiling. I tried to shut out the sound from the rain that smattered against window.
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Everything feels so weird, I still love Adam but I have also feelings for Jacob. But Adam left me, so why should I care? I don't belong to his world and I will probably never be a part of his life again. Jacob makes me happy and he makes me laugh. I think I'm starting to like him more than a friend.
Oliver has feelings for Jacob but he still loves Adam.
