Career Driven Woman

Chapter 68

"I know this isn't what you want to hear right now" Lottie said pacing up and down my room "but you need to break up with him".

I removed the doona from my face "Lottie I love him" I said sniffling.

"I know you do. Babe I know you do. But you cannot let him treat you the way he did" she said before wandering off to answer the door.

She came back in with a bunch of flowers and a note. She read it before rolling her eyes "ugh" she said disgusted "your loser of a boyfriend sent these along with this note" she said handing it to me before abandoning the flowers on my dressing table.

I crumpled up the note and threw it in the bin.

"Lottie why is it that there are all these red flags and yet I still love that man?" I said bursting into tears.

"I don't know babe" she said sitting beside me on the bed "only you can answer that question" she said sighing.

It had been a rough morning. I was hungover and sad. The worst combination. Carlos was blowing up my phone like no other. Max had called in the morning to see how I was doing. I ended up crying to him about this whole thing. Lewis had also dropped in with coffee and breakfast. He chatted for a bit before having to go to do some PR for the Christmas break.

"What do I do Lottie?" I asked sighing staring out the window.

"You do what you want. I'll support you. I may not be happy depending on your decision but I'll still be there 100% of the way" she said sighing.

After a day of deliberating what I wanted to do and looking at both sides of the arguments in front of me I invited Carlos over. He had bought another bouquet of flowers and an expensive necklace as a sorry present. I told him that he couldn't just buy my love like that. But here I was. The idiot who forgave the man with multiple red flags.

I wasn't quite sure why I still loved him to be honest. Love really does make people go blind. He had put me through horrible situations and yet here I was still in love with this guy. He was toxic but I was eating it up like it was starving. He had me exactly where he wanted me and I was so blind to it.

Lottie was disappointed that I had decided to keep going with things but she too knew that love makes people do stupid dumb things.

Stupid stupid stupid.

Maybe he will change I hoped. He probably wouldn't. But that was enough to reassure myself that this time was going to be different. He would be a different man just like he promised.

Whilst he assured me that he wasn't cheating on me or hadn't been cheating on me I wasn't convinced. I had spent hours just looking at the search engine on my phone trying to push myself to look up anything any rumours that had sprang to mind but I couldn't.

I didn't want to believe that it if it was true.

If I stumbled upon it then sure I would take a read and divulge more but I didn't want to find it myself. I didn't want that right now. I didn't want to believe he was capable of it. I didn't want this world to end.

I stupidly let him stay the night in my apartment. And as I lay next to him, him snoring away peacefully lying there, I couldn't help but stare at the ceiling just wondering.

Why was I doing this?

Love makes people do stupid things.

Dumb things.

Crazy things.

What the hell is wrong with me.