My Deepest Thoughts

Know that I am broken

Before you attempt to fix me
Can you figure out who I am?
Before you attempt to fix me
Can you take this suicidal thoughts out of my head?
Before you attempt to fix me
Can you get me to stop crying?
Before you try to fix me
Can you promise not to quit?

A lot of people have came to my life
But they always end up leaving
Many made promises
But always end up breaking it
Some have dried my tears
Only to being the sadness back into my life
And a lot have tried
But only to end up quitting on me

So I am begging you
Before you start this
Make sure you can end it
Before you love me
Know that I don't have a heart
Before you start to care
Know that I cannot trust
And before you attempt to put me back together
Know that there will always be pieces missing
And I will always be incomplete

Now I know you are thinking of leaving
Thinking I am not ready to commit
Thinking I will always try to push you away
Questioning if I am really worth it
Wondering if I can ever be fixed.

But know that I am trying
It is just not showing
Know that I am hoping
It is just not happening
Know that I have no control over what is happening to me
Because I don't want to live like this.

I just want you to think this through
Before you start this mission
Make sure you are strong enough
Because I am weak
Make sure you are committed
Because I have given up on myself a long time ago
Make sure you are ready
Because I will try to push you away
And be ready to always be by my side
Because the knife always come to me.

I just want you to think
I want you to know
I want you to prepare yourself
Because I am broken.