My Deepest Thoughts

Another promise broken

                                     Dedicated to memalouise
Another promise broken yet again
You said you will always be there for me
I will never have to deal with life alone
Whenever I need you,
You will always be next to me
So where are you?

They said that 'blood is thicker than water'
But I guess our blood wasn't strong enough
Because the water have overflowed and drifted us in two different directions.
I guess I should be used to pain by now
But then again
It is a different pain everyday
And it is making me lose my mind because I don't even know what to expect every morning as I wake up

But you said when I am happy
You'll smile with me
When I am sad
You are supposed to cry with me
You said you will share my pains with me
And be the cause of my joy.
But now I don't even know if you can hear me
You went to a place that I can't go
You went to somewhere that you wouldn't want me to be

I can deal with the other pains
But the pain you left me with
It is unbearable
How can you leave me in this curel world
We were supposed to conquer this world together
But I guess I am doing this alone
It is just another promise broken yet again
I am all by myself once again
But it's okay
It is just another pain that I have to deal with.
It just hurts that you would cause me pain too
But I still love you
After all, you are my sister.