My Deepest Thoughts

Do You Know That Feeling?

Do you know that feeling?
When you are waiting for that one person to call
Or they can text if they want
When you don't know if they don't recall
That you are waiting for that notification
With their name as the subject

Do you know that feeling?
When you don't know what you want
But it feels like love
But you don't want to love
Because you that know it hurt
But just can't stop yourself
Your heart want what it want

Do you know that feeling?
They don't even have to care
You just want to be there
Right next to them
Just as their friend
If nothing more.

Do you know that feeling?
When you start to hate
Because you know your heart is at stake
And you just can't stop to think about this person
That don't even want you
That don't care about you
Don't want you around them
But you want them around you

Don't you know that feeling hurt?
When I call but you don't pick up
When you read my text but you don't reply
And I am having sleepless nights
Because I am waiting for you to return my calls
But you won't do it
You won't notice me for anything
Don't you understand I work hard for you
So you can see me walk on stage
But you are not even proud
You missed my speech
Where I confess my love for you.

Do you know that feeling?
When you are done with everything
Because the only one you want
Do not want you back
When you refuse to look in his eyes
Because you are afraid they might draw you back

Don't you know that feeling hurt?
Don't you know that I don't want that feeling
Can't you just be my friend
At least I'd have an excuse to call your phone.
I'd have an excuse to be around.

But I'm done.