My Deepest Thoughts

It's A Strange Day

It is such a strange day
This morning I woke up, got dressed nicely
Out on my way to see you
I wanted to see your beautiful face
Feel your wonderful warmth
Hear your joyful laugh
Tell you how stressful my day was yesterday
How I cried myself to sleep last night

I was just on my way to surprise you
Woke up early because I couldn't sleep
I just wanted to show you the new poem that I wrote for you
I wanted you to know I am thinking of you
But I saw you
I wanted to see a smile but I saw death
You were lying on the floor looking pale
Not knowing what to do I fell on the ground
Looking at you, I start to cry
I came to show the happy poem that I wrote
But you let me with a suicidal note

I thought I told you you can trust me
You will always have me even if everybody else left
I thought you promised me you will hold on
I knew it was though
But I didn't expect you to give up
What do you want me to do alone in this curel world?

I dressed nicely to see you
Looked forward to hearing you
I was trying to feel your warmth
But you were lying on the floor cold
I wanted to see you smile
But I left with tears
Now I am sitting wondering
Is it okay to be happy without you?
Is it okay to eat not knowing if you are starving or not?
Is it okay to think about anything else except you?
Is it Even okay for me to live knowing you are dead?

But It was a strange day
Let's just leave it at that.