My Deepest Thoughts

I BELIEVED IN YOU

I believe in wishes
I believe in magic
I believe is speaking things into existence
I believed you you.
I believed in us

But no matter how much wishes I make
I could be a millionaire
If I saved all the money I threw into the fountain
But all of it don't matter
Because you will keep looking down on me

No matter how much I wait for magic to happen
I could have reached my place of joy
If I wasn't waiting for a miracle
That will make me taller
So I can stop looking up to you.

I have spoken silently
I have screamed it to the world
I have looked in the mirror and told myself
That I am beautiful
But you still won't see me as that

I have wished for the day
You will stop and notice me
I have been waiting for the day
That magic will magically turn me into a human
Because you keep walking through me
Like I am a ghost
I always tell myself I am beautiful
Maybe it is not happening because I don't believe it
Maybe you are not seeing it
Because my words aren't enough

But that's all I can do
Everytime I look on the mirror
I end up breaking
Because I can only tell myself I am beautiful
I don't actually see it.
I can only speak it
I don't believe.
But I thought my words will be enough.

The universe is asking of too much from me
Because I refuse to believe is something that is not real
But I believed on us.