My Deepest Thoughts

I AM AT THAT POINT

I have come to that point of my life
Where I have to question everything.
I have to find a purpose in everything
Before I can even attempt it.
I have arrived at that point
Where fun doesn't even exist.
Because every time I take a break
They make it seem like I am not doing enough.

I have gotten to that point
Where I question is it worth it to wake up?
What do I plan on accomplishing today?
It has got to the point
Where I have to put pressure on my brain
It has to come up with an idea, and it has to be quick.

I have reached that point,
Where I question is life worth it?
I am just waking up every morning
Waiting for a purpose.
Is it even worth it?
I have gotten to that point
Where if my brain fails to deliver a purpose for the day,
I lose hope.

It has gotten to that point
Where my anxiety won't give me break
It has gotten to the point,
Where my demons won't go to sleep
It is reached the point,
Where suicidal thoughts won't leave my thoughts.

It has really gotten to the point
Where I just want to go to sleep
And stay asleep.
It has really reached to that point.