My Deepest Thoughts

PICK UP

I called your phone
Not because I have anything to say
But because I wanna hear your voice
You picked up
But you didn't say a word
I was hoping even if it is just "hello"
That would make my day
But you didn't say anything
You was waiting for me to start
So I hung up

Thought about it deep
I thought about what I was gonna say
So I called your phone again
But you didn't pick up my call
I know you see your phone ringing
But you knew it was me
  So you didn't answer

I was gonna tell you
How much I love you
How deep I really care
And how much I missed you
I was gonna say
How it breaks my heart
That you are no longer next to me
When I look by my side
I was gonna tell you
That I forgive you
Even though you hurt me deep
I can't forget you
But you didn't pick up

And that breaks my heart more
So now I am shutting everybody out
I am living by self
Don't need nobody else
I refuse to give my heart
Because it is already crumbled
And now when I see your face
I just want to cry

I know I can't forget you
You will always be on my mind
But I also can't forgive you
And I won't even try
When you call my name
I won't look your way
And whenever you call my phone
I will just throw it at the wall
Because you hurt me

And sooner or later
You will figure it out
And then you will regret it.