My Deepest Thoughts

Waiting For It To Be Over

Life can be challenging just because of your skin color
Life can be hard because of the way you look
People can judge you based on how many friends you have
They will rank you based on the grades you get
But you have to be strong
You have to ignore and focus
  That was what my mother told me

She told me not to worry
That is just how life is
She said if I see somebody of a different color looking at me differently, treating me like I am different
I should just ignore
Obey them because they are my masters.
But I don't want to do that
It hurts me to see other people in pain
We have to work for them
and worship them like they are God
They don't even have any sympathy for the poor children
They have to do the same amount of work

I told my mama
I said I don't want to do this
I don't want to be here
Wouldn't it be better to be dead
God wouldn't treat us like we are trash
He created them just like us
But why do they get the power?
" I just want to be gone mother, it pains me to see you in pain"
My mother ran to me
She gave me the tightest hug ever
She told me not to ever think that way
She said everything will be fine soon
She said just to keep trying
She told me to always have hope.
But she don't go to the same school with me
So she doesn't know
That I am the only one at the row that I sit in on the bus
I sit by myself on the cafeteria table
People would rather stand on the bus
Than to sit in the same seat with me
The lunch ladies despise me
Everybody mocks me
She don't know that I really don't want to be here

But I am still trying
Hoping for it to be over soon
But it still isn't over yet.