Bad for You (GU #1)

thirty-seven

Thirty-Seven: No More Goodbyes

I'd be a liar if I'll say I never imagined kissing Slade. Because I did. At hindi lang iisang beses. But never did I imagine it'd be this way. Na ganito ang mararamdaman ko.

His lips were still gently pressed against mine. Seemed like it was so long since our lips touched but in reality, it was just a few seconds ago. Parang literal kasing huminto ang oras nang halikan niya ako. Noong una, hindi ko matukoy kung anong nangyari. Pakiramdam ko na lang na huminto ang lahat. Hindi ko na rin maramdaman pa ang sarili. Parang inalis ako sa sarili kong katawan at napunta sa kung saang lugar.

Noong kinalaunan ko na lang napagtanto ang lagay ko ngayon. Ang lagay naming dalawa ni Slade. That was when all my senses came back. I finally felt how soft his lips were as it pressed against mine. Kung paanong kahigpit ang hawak niya sa bewang ko na para bang ayaw niya akong pakawalan. At kung paano nagwawala ang puso ko ngayon na sobrang bilis at lakas ng tibok.

I closed my eyes and just let myself feel. I was just starting to calm down and enjoy the moment when suddenly Slade ended the kiss. I opened my eyes and saw him gasping for air as he stared back at me. Okay at least I wasn't the only one who's breathless.

Hindi siya lumayo. Patuloy pa ring magkalapit ang mga katawan namin habang nakatingin lang kami sa isa't isa.

"Don't ever say that again," Slade told me intently.

Binigyan ko naman siya ng nagtatakang tingin. Hindi ko alam kung alin sa mga sinabi ko ang tinutukoy niya. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. "Huh?"

"Good bye," sagot niya. "I don't want to hear that from you, again."

I silently stared at his eyes before saying, "Okay. If that's what you want.."

He smiled that drop dead gorgeous smile and my insides went crazy. As much as I loved staring at his brown orbs, my gaze drifted down to his lips. Those lips which were just touching mine a moment ago. Absentmindedly, I bit my lower lip. Slade groaned.

"Celestine," I heard him faintly whisper. And before I knew it, he already pressed me against

the nearby wall. Inilagay niya ang malayang kamay sa gilid ng ulo ko pagkatapos inilapit niya ang katawan sa akin. I felt lightheaded suddenly. As he gave a smoldering look, I knew already what was about to come. And oddly, I wasn't scared of it. In fact, I was anticipating it.

Matagal pa akong tinitigan ni Slade habang gabuhok na lang ang distansya ng mga katawan namin hanggang sa dahan-dahan nang bumaba ang mukha niya sa akin. Doon ko na ipinikit ang mga mata. At first, it was just a plain kiss, just two lips pressed against each other until Slade lips began to move. Mas bumilis pa ang tibok ng puso ko. Naramdaman ko naman ang kamay niyang nasa pader na lumipat sa leeg ko. He tilted my head and deepened the kiss. I felt the tingles all over my body. Fita. Parang nanlambot ang buong katawan ko. Mabuti na lang na bago pa ako matumba ay nakahawak na ako sa magkabilang balikat ni Slade. I felt his shoulders tense under my touch. He slowed down until his lips stilled over mine. Then he pulled away a little, our lips were barely touching.

Okay. What happened? Why did he stop? I tried hard not to whimper. The truth was I was just getting into the moment. And bam he stopped. Just like that. Gusto ko na talaga siyang tanungin. Pero hindi makapag-isip nang matino ang utak ko. Paano ay tila lutang pa rin ito. The only thing that kept on playing on my mind was his lips and how I wanted to feel those on mine, again. Absentmindedly, my hands moved from his shoulders to the back of his neck, my fingers playing with the base of his hair.

Slade made a sound, something deep and low and before I knew it, he already closed the distance between us. That was when I started to kiss him back. He groaned at that and it was a one sexy sound. Mas inilapit niya pa ang katawan sa akin. Like every part of us were touching and I was sure my body was on fire.