Hidden Omega

Keeping up with Hoseok, Part 2

In Hoseok's defense, he did take a full two days where he didn't practice and focus all his energy on it. Those two days were good and after his talk with Bang PD he did really feel like he could get better, and every day in group therapy was helping.

While yes Yoseob didn't want him to go there alone, and he had yet to actually talk about his issues Hoseok was starting to feel better. If just a little, but feeling better was not enough... He was actually going insane... he needed to dance.

He was in the Beast dorm with Kikwang since the older idol didn't have any shooting for Monster that day. He was instead spending his time laying on the floor with a notebook and that thinking smile that Hoseok had come to know so well from Namjoon and Yoongi, meaning that he didn't even have to ask what the beta was doing. It was clear to Hoseok.

Hoseok, on the other hand, was struggling in finding peace in himself. He was unable to just sit and read, he tried to watch tv, then to play games on phone. Anything to actually stop rocking side from side, he didn't want to annoy Kikwang. He couldn't explain why he had so much unused energy inside of him!

In the end, Kikwang put his notebook down and looked at Hoseok. "Okay, what is wrong?"

Hoseok pulled an awkward facial expression. "I don't know. I just have so much energy and I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't focus."

"You are a dancer, right? Practice every day?" Hoseok nodded. "Yeah there is your issue, your body is used to spending the energy every day and now you aren't."

Oh...

"Bang PD-nim said that I shouldn't join practice yet. I should focus on my mental health state."

"Did he say you shouldn't join the practice with all of you or that you just couldn't practice?

"Our big practice together." Hoseok was full on pouting at that point.

Kikwang laughed a little. "Grab your stuff. We are going to practice,"

Hoseok looked kinda surprised. "You wanna go workout?" He had expected Kikwang to just wanna relax all day when he had a rare day off. Hoseok himself wasn't sure if he really wanted to go and lift weights. He wasn't Seokjin and Jungkook, he didn't actually take pleasure from going to the gym.

"No I wanna go and dance, did you forget I am a dancer as well? Not just idol dancer?" Hoseok had to admit that he had indeed focused on Kikwang being the lead dancer of Beast and suddenly he felt eager to get his gear and head to practice with Kikwang.

And when he jumped up to run and get his stuff he left Kikwang behind slightly laughing at the younger's eagerness. They ended up going to Beast's practice room, none of the other members was there all having solo activities. "Isn't it sad when more and more people have solo stuff to do? Taehyung is gonna be shooting for a drama later and Yoongi will have his solo debut. I am worried that we are going to be less of a group with all doing different things."

Kikwang looked at him surprised while he was stretching. "No? If anything I think that at the time, our solo activities are really good for us. Even if you are a pack or not, it simply isn't good to spend 100% of your time with people. I love my mates... but I want a little space as well. That is why you will see that all idol groups even just packs have rooms where people can go and just be themselves! Like you said that Jungkook and Taehyung play video games? When they go to another room and play it is actually good for you guys, not all people need people around them at all times. Space is good at times. That is why this time right now is good for you guys, space is good."

Hoseok nodded slowly, he got the point Kikwang was trying to say. He did think that this space between them all, for now, was good. When they were going to return together they would be stronger in their love than ever. Ready to prove to Namjoon that he belonged to them, that he should pick them. "Maybe you are right... I am just afraid of change I guess."