Hidden Omega

Keeping up with Seokjin, Part 1

Staying with the JYJ pack was... not what Seokjin expected, he had always been the oldest, no matter if it was at university, school or in BTS, he was the Hyung that was just how things were, but now suddenly he wasn't anymore. Junsu was 6 years older than him, Jaejoong the oldest over 7 years older than him.

Nobody in JYJ expected Seokjin to have the answers or to take care of them if anything they seemed to quite like trying to take care of him. Junsu was the most guilty of it, Jaejoong had even teased the omega that he was trying to adopt Seokjin.

It was weird getting used to.

It was Jaejoong that had suggested that Seokjin should stay with them for a little while, which was still a surprise to the young beta who didn't know them very well. Seokjin couldn't stop himself from questioning what the motives were behind it.

Yoochun had taken the job to sit down next to him, putting his hand above Seokjin "we talked about it, not just between us but also between the others, Jimin is with Exo, and they got to hear a little from them about what was going on. You seem very closed off and like you could need a bit of a break. When is the last time that you have asked somebody else for help?"

Seokjin had just shaken his head "I am the oldest."

"And here you are the youngest, you want to know what our motivation is? We genuinely just want to help you, we have gone through a lot as a pack, and when we were younger we got help from the people in the industry older than us, it's about time that we do a favour back."

"We aren't from the same company! You don't know me!" Seokjin didn't know why he was arguing like it, but it had been so long since he had last allowed himself to accept help. He had been the oldest of the pack, and while Yoongi was the pack leader, it was him that the youngest would always come to, he was more... helpful that Yoongi was.

The only person that Seokjin had really gotten and accepted help from was Namjoon, and as Namjoon had pulled in on himself, so had Seokjin. It was first then, looking back on everything that had happened that the beta really seemed to realise just how big of an effect Namjoon on their life... on his life.

"We just want to help."

Seokjin's pulse was picking up, and his breath was no longer coming as easily to him as before, his mind felt fussy "don't lie to me if you just wanted to help you would have gone to help some of my group members they need it more than me!"

His words were almost a complete ramble, and he was surprised if they made even a little bit of sense, Junsu didn't answer he just kneeled in front of Seokjin, but refrain from touching him "deep breath's, clear your mind and just focus on my breath," he was matching his own breath's with Seokjin" yes that is good, keep going, in through the nose and all the way down into your chest, then out through your mouth, you are doing so good, just listen to my voice and follow my breathing."

Seokjin had no other choice to follow the words of the older omega, deep breaths until he almost... found a way to focus back on what was happening around him. He had lost any track of time, and first, when he managed to focus did Junsu hesitantly ask "is it okay for me to touch you?"

The words took longer than Seokjin like to admit to really reach him, and even longer for him to actually answer in the end, his answer was a slow nod, not yet having found his voice.

Junsu didn't push or do something big. Instead, he just sat down next to Seokjin's on the couch instead of sitting in front of him, wrapping the beta up in a one-armed hug "can I tell you a story?"

Those weren't the words that Seokjin expected him to say, but he nodded, anything that wasn't talking about himself or what just happened sounded good. It wasn't the first time he had these kinds of attacks, panic attacks, his mind reminded him deep in the back of his, they were panic attacks. He had one before he joined the idol world, it was during university, and he had been very stressed about both himself as a beta, homework and his future as hopefully an actor.