Hidden Omega

Nothing ever lasts forever In the end, you changed There is no reason

Namjoon was happily laying back in his bed, soft smile on his lips as he ran a slow finger over the lyrics book in his hands. It was the book that Hoseok from Monsta x had given him in what felt like lifetimes ago. He was in his hotel room, he was the one who had chosen the single room for the day.

It wasn't because he had to, or that he didn't feel like being with his pack, but it just felt good to have a few moments for himself. He had called up Himchan, needing to talk a bit with somebody who understood his eating disorder after having struggled at dinner that night, which had led to him to chat with Junhong as well, as he had come to cuddle with Himchan.

Namjoon had felt the warmth and happiness spread in his chest as the baby omega talked happily about how he still had his packbite and everything else going on. It was calm and soft talking between them, Namjoon enjoying every moment as he had started to miss the BAP pack.

It was so weird for him to be in Japan, he knew that no matter which pack he chose, even if it was the BTS pack, there would be times where his job as an idol would take him away from them. It was something he would have to come to terms with, no matter what happened. At first, it had seemed like something that would be impossible, but the talk with Daesung and then with the two BAP members made him feel a little better about it. He knew that he would be able to do it.

Of course, talking with Daesung hadn't magically made him change his mind, he still wanted to help BTS, but he realised that the older omega was right. Forcing himself to take the packbite before he was ready to it, would hurt BTS more than anything. It was something talking to Junhong afterwards about pack bites had made him realise; hearing the shaking in Himchan's voice as he talked about realising that the omega, that his soulmate, had rejected the bite again, hearing how it hurt him... helped Namjoon come to terms with everything. Realising just how much damage it could course.

He ran the tips of his fingers over the words in the lyric book in front of him, they were much lighter and happier than they were months ago before he got put in the hospital. It was weird to think that it had really only been 3 months since everything had happened.

A small smile was spreading over Namjoon's full lips, he felt lighter, freer, it was hard for him to even put himself in the shoes of the dud that almost died just a few months ago. Times were... different.

A soft knock on Namjoon's door was enough to pull him out of his thoughts "come in it isn't locked?" his voice was hesitant, normally any member of BTS would just have barged in, and staff would have texted him before coming up. For a second, he was worried that maybe he had just invited in a stalker, but the distraught scent of peppermint entering the room signalled who it was before Namjoon could even see them, "Kookie?" throwing his book to the side, Namjoon sat up on the bed, eyes wide and worried as the alpha entered his line of vision.

"Can...- Can I just...- have a hug?" Jungkook's words were weird, and the alpha seemed both desperate for it and also, almost like he wasn't there. His arms were wrapped around himself, and his upper body was more or less being swallowed up by one of his big white t-shirts, with his workout shorts barely visible underneath.

Namjoon was quick to open his arms "of course baby, come here." part of Namjoon was panicking, something was wrong with Jungkook, his Jungkook and he didn't know what it was. He thought that everything was going so well, but he couldn't give in to that panic, as Jungkook was quick to climb into bed, burying himself in Namjoon's embrace.

Neither of them said anything as Jungkook hid his face in Namjoon scent gland, and just stayed there, he didn't embrace Namjoon back, he just... seemingly wanted to be held. Namjoon didn't point out that the baby alpha was shaking, instead just hugging Jungkook close, trying his best to keep calm and to keep his scent soft and calming.