I've recently opened up to quite a few people about something very personal which I hadn't told anyone before, and I never realised quite how hard it was to tell people things which were so personal. It takes a lot of guts, and I feel sick every time someone talks to me about it. I just wish I hadn't told anyone most of the time, but I have to remind myself that living with such intense emotions and having no outlet for them is not healthy either.
I'm just so scared of things slipping, things getting out of hand. My big mouth won't stop telling people now what's going on with me, and I have to learn to shut myself up because otherwise it will get too big and cause too many problems. I've never had to talk to people about my problems like this before, and god it's hard.
