Passion of the Soul (formerly known as Love Has No Color)

Chapter 52

(Note: This is Unedited.)

                                                        Dedicated to Isaras.

                                        

         After a while, I didn't hear Chad anymore, it seem as if he realize, I wasn't going to open the door and left. I sat there until I was calm; the shaking went away "even though" I was still scared and worried I know there's nothing I could do from here, if anything happen to my children. Plus Martha is good with them.  

I get up from off the floor and walk over to the sink, I look in the mirror and I look like a truck has run over me...' my make-up was running off my skin, my eyelashes were bleeding black water and my eyes were red from the tears and the lock of sleep. God I look a mess, I murmurs out loud, I then took some paper towel and start cleaning my face off. 

I started to think..." I know Chad meant well, hurting me is not in him. I remember just a few hours ago, how happy I was with him, how I was thinking that I'm the luckiest woman in the world to have a guy like Chad, even if he can't love me the way he wants to. The way Chad and I relationship is, it's enough love for me. He's truly the person that best friends are made of. 

But right now I am so mad at him for pulling this little stunt, what was he thinking, that I was going to be in happy land here in the Keys without my children. (Ha" man") I wash and dry my face before walking to the door and opening it...' only to see Chad sitting on the floor at the door with his head leaning on the wall behind him, with his eyes close as if he's sleeping or in deep thoughts. I couldn't help but laugh and shake my head at him. 

The sound of my laughter alerts him" J...' he said standing up, not coming too close to me, I've notify the captain that we're going back, he added quickly. But because he was cruising down here, he needs to get some rest first before the return trip. As soon as the sun comes up, we'll be leaving; he ended, looking at me with his sad green eyes". 

"Okay" I reply and side step him. 

"I need to call Martha and check on the girls, I said looking for my purse, which have my phone in it. 

"Um...' I think it's too late to call her right now, the phone will wake up the girls, plus she might think that something has happen to us...' and you know if Giselle wakes up at this time she's not going back to sleep he calmly stated. 

After seeing how I was looking at him with worry on my face, he came close to me, and touches my right shoulder cautiously.  

"I promise I'll remind you as soon as the sun comes up to call her, beside Martha is under strict orders to call me if the girls, do as much as cough more than ordinary, he said looking at me with hopes on his sad face. 

I couldn't help but smile at him; I guess you're right, it's a little early to call her, and he smiles back at me, as he nodded his head agreeing with me.  

"Chad, I'm sorry that I've over reacted earlier, I said looking at him with regrets on my face. (I don't know what it is, but I just can't stay mad at him for too long. Maybe it's those sad green eyes of his; they show so much pain when he's sad.) But you can understand why..."you can't do things like this without notifying me first. I don't care how thoughtful it is...'I'm a mother now, I can't act as if I'm single...' he cuts me off.  

"J, I'm sorry...' 

"Oh I know you meant well, I interject waving his apology off. 

"Yes I do mean well, he said hugging me now. 

"I hug him back, don't ever do anything like this to me again, I said softly. 

"You have my word, he replies just as softly."