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🖤💖Eating Disorder - Doyoung

Request by: Celestisabelle5

TRIGGER WARNING: EATING DISORDER (BULIMIA)

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Being an idol is stressful in a multitude of ways. Not only are idols expected to be perfect 100% of the time but they have unrealistic expectations put on them in every single department. From their attitudes to their performance, to their physical appearance, a lot was expected of them.

Having so many members in one group, it wasn't a shock that some of the members would feel inferior to the others and the pressure of the company and fan's standards didn't make those insecurities any better.

Doyoung had felt insecure since debut, to others he looked fine, he had a nice fit body, a handsome face and his singing ability was off the charts amazing but in his eyes all of those were lies.

When he looked at his other members, especially johnny and jaehyun he couldn't help but feel envious of them. Their thin, muscular bodies, their tones arms, their six-pack abs he wanted what they have.

Even though all the members constantly told him how fit he was, how attractive he looked, he could never convince himself to believe their words. His only focus was to look like them, to lose more weight, to gain more muscle. And he hadn't even realized that he was taking it too far until it was too late.

He hadn't meant for it to get this bad, he thought he'd start slowly by skipping meals but having 21 watchful eyes on him all the time, he didn't get away with that very easily. Taeyong and johnny had instantly noticed and began watching him during meals to make sure he ate.

He was still very unhappy with his weight and needed to find another solution to get rid of the extra pounds.

Exercise wasn't enough, no matter how hard he worked out or for how long he wasn't getting results fast enough.

After some research he discovered a method that seemed to be fast and affective according to people on the internet.

He sat with the members of 127 as they gathered for dinner.

He swallowed nervously before he ate his meal, the food taeyong cooked tasted so good he felt bad that we would get rid of it right after.

After everyone had finished eating, taeyong and taeil began doing the dishes and doyoung excused himself to the bathroom.

He snuck upstairs to the furthest bathroom and closed and locked the door. He turned on the shower to cover any sound before he stood shakily at the sink. He looked in the mirror and grimaced at himself staring at his body in disgust.

He had been hesitant at first but after seeing himself he was convinced of his plan.

He stepped over to the toilet and opened the lid slowly dropping to his knees. He took a shaky breath before he shoved his fingers into the back of his throat instantly triggering his gag reflex.

He gagged a few times before he successfully brought up any of his dinner.

With one final gag he threw up his meal in one big heave, a violent sound echoing in the bathroom. Luckily no one was around to hear him.

Once he couldn't bring anything else up he spit into the bowl and flushed everything away before he brushed his teeth and rinsed his mouth.

He hated the feeling of throwing up, and at first he told himself he wouldn't do it ever again.