NCT/WAYV Oneshots

🖤🩹💖Bottled Up- Renjun

Request by: Alawrence23

TRIGGER WARNING: UNSTABLE MENTAL HEALTH, DETAILED DESCRIPTIONS OF POOR MENTAL HEALTH

As somebody who personally deals with depression and anxiety i put a lot of personal experience into this. i want you guys to know that even when you feel like things are too bad, or your life is crashing around you, there is always a way out of that deep dark place. reach out for help, it does get better i promise you.

please, if you deal with poor mental health or share similar experiences don't read this, your well-being is much more important to me than a view or vote.

i love you guys so much <3

Being a kpop idol no question is hard, you have to spend so much time away from your loved ones, you're constantly busy rarely getting any breaks, and a lot of the team members and staff can be demanding and mean.

Renjun had been struggling with his mental health for a few months now, he was homesick all the time and the thought of having to get out of bed and go to dance practice drove him mad.

He had noticed that his performing had been lackluster these days, his motivation deteriorating as the days went by. He had never wanted to disappoint the rest of his members but as time passed, he lost his ability to care about the music anymore.

He stopped smiling, he almost never hung out with the dreamies anymore, spending all his free time alone in his room.

He found that even getting out of bed in the morning had become a struggle.

He knew that it was unhealthy to live the way he was, he hadn't mentioned his development of depression to the dreamies in fear that it would slow them down. The last thing he wanted was for his own issues to affect his members.

He kept it to himself, and anytime someone asked him if he was alright, he'd turn to them and smile, faking a bubbly voice to reassure them that he was fine.

He tried to improve his skills for the group, working hard at dance practice despite finding no joy in dancing anymore. He worked hard to perfect his form and his moves, proving himself to the company and the boys.

The announcement of their newest comeback didn't excite him. He wasn't thrilled thinking about having to learn a new dance, record new parts, pretend to be fine for cameras and fans for several months before he could hide away again.

Nct dream had started their preparation for the comeback, working diligently to complete all the tasks needed for the album.

The dance was the first priority, learning and perfecting the choreo so they could move on and begin other tasks.

They were at dance practice with heir choreographer working hard learning the new dance.

Renjun forced himself to pay attention, making sure all the new information stayed in his brain.

He did his best to complete the choreo despite it being difficult, he did the moves correctly, but the choreographer noticed that he seemed off.

Once the practice was over, the choreographer asked renjun to stay back for a minute.

He internally groaned wanting desperately to go home and hide under his covers.

He walked over to the choreographer, expecting to be scolded but instead, a gentle hand was on his shoulder and a concerned face met his eyes.