Just Us - Wanda Maximoff x Fem!reader

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"Uhm, princess." I look down to Wanda who is curled up on the bed with her head resting in my lap as I weave my hands through her hair.

"Yes baby." Wanda turns her head to look up at me with soft eyes and a soft smile. 

"I think it's going to be one of those days." I bite my lip nervously hoping she knows what I'm talking about. I hate that I'm already asking for space but the panic attack has knocked everything out of me and I need a minute to compose myself.

"Okay, baby. What do you need from me?" Her right hand moves up to cup my cheek, her soft features never changing. 

"I'm thinking of going to the lake, maybe get a bit of fishing in then maybe read a book. All you need to do is relax, enjoy your time with the boys."

"Okay." I turn my head to peck Wanda's palm that's resting on my cheek. "How are you feeling this morning?" 

"My face is quite sore, I'm going to take some painkillers before going out. My mind's still a little fuzzy but I'm okay." Wanda takes her hand back as she moves to sit up in front of me sitting criss-cross applesauce.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Wanda's hands rest on her calves as her attentive eyes scan my face. 

"So I think I said last night that it was my own mind that put me in that position and not what you did. Right?"

"Yeah, but I think my actions still played a part. I'm not here to say it is or it isn't because only you know how your mind works. So, what got you so worked up that you had a panic attack?" 

"I'm going to say it all in one, and I want you to just listen and try not to fight back on what I'm saying." Wanda grabs my hands pulling them into her lap, her thumbs gently rubbing over my knuckles. 

"I'm listening." I squeeze her hand taking a breath before I start.

"I hurt you. That's what it was all about. I forcefully stopped you, I didn't let you past, I didn't allow you to go to Billy. He is your son, I should have never stopped you from getting to him. You asked me to get off of you and I didn't, you even had to grab at my hands and I still didn't let go. I didn't even realise what I was doing until it was too late and by that point you were angry, you were upset and I still had a hold of you. I never thought I would ever be that person who does that sort of thing. And I know you can argue that I only thought I was helping but I did more hurt than help. Once I let go and you moved past me I flinched. I flinched because your shoulder hit mine and my mind was already reeling and I was losing myself. So when I felt the contact my mind jumped back to the first and only time I tried to defend myself against Steph, which ended in me in a hospital bed. But that reaction from me was not your fault, you were in a rush to get to your boy. Your reaction was warranted, but because of where I had caused my own mind to go it added more on top of what I was already trying to pull myself from. Then from there it all spiralled, and now we're here." 

"You didn't hurt me Y/n. I was upset that you weren't letting me get to Billy, yes, but I understand why you did it. I was in a panic, I would have woken Billy up without a second thought. You stopped me from making everything worse, I didn't listen to you just as much as you didn't listen to me. But you knew if you let go of me I would have probably still woken him up, until you made me promise not to. You did what I didn't, you stayed calm. You looked at the situation, stayed calm and knew how to handle it. You did good. I also should have done better in making sure I didn't barge into you, I don't care if you say it's not my fault or any of that shit. I know how you react to conflict, let alone when someone makes contact with you during conflict. I should have taken a step back, taken a breath and moved calmly to Billy. So you may have got lost in your own mind, but my actions tipped you over the edge."