Little Hearts❤❤❤

37. A Huge Mess

Ram sat on the bed, taking a picture of Shivi in his hand, crying profusely.
Ram: Shivi bachhe lag raha hai aaj maine phirse tujhe kho dia jaise 5 saal pehle khoya tha. Shivi mere saath aisa kyun hota hai? Jinse pyaar karta hoon woh hamesha durr chale jaate hain. Mumma, Dad, Vedika, phir Tu, phir Priya aur meri choti si Pihu, usko bhi.....did I deserve all this? It's true Priya didn't choose me over Ishaan that day when she knew how much I needed her. I know she was traumatized, and she wanted to save Ishaan but seriously she even pushed him in a more dangerous situation by taking the blame on herself! Main samajh raha hoon uski haalat kya thi! But kya woh samajh rahi hai mujhpe kya beeti hai 5 saal?
Shivi! kyun hua aisa Shivi? Kyun Tu aaj yahan nahi hai? Sab hai yahan. Akki aaya hai, mujhpe gussa hai bohot aur hona bhi chahiye. Usse uska haq cheena hai maine. Kisise uska haq chin jane ka dard main jaanta hoon isiliye samajhta bhi hoon uska gussa. Meri bachhi ko mujhse alag kar dia. Priya ko chin lia mujhse. Kya main itna dard deserve karta hoon Shivi? Poori zindagi unke pairo tale rakhdi maine. Kabhi apni khusi ko priority nahi di. Mujhe itne saal andhere mein rakkha, blame game khelti rahi tere death ko use karke! Shivi I still can't believe she's a mother! Meera aunty! She's also a mother! Kya hai yeh sab Shivi? Kuch answer nahi hai mere paas? Bass lawhon sawaal hai jinka koi jawaab nahi hai. Maine kyun chod dia Priya ko aise! Kyun jail mein aise rehne dia? Kuch ho jata usse aur Pihu ko toh kya karta main? Nandini Kapoor ne meri bachhi ko cheena mujhse! Aur agar Priya mujhe usse de bhi deti na Shivi, Pihu kabhi uss ghar mein safe nahi hoti. Kyunki hume toh lagta ke woh yeh sab teri death ke dukh mein kar rahi hai! Mujhe kabhi yeh nahi lagta ke yeh sab property ke lia....5 saal main ghut ghut ke jeeta raha kabhi unhe ek baar bhi aisa nahi laga ke mujhe bata dein ke main Papa bann chuka hoon meri ek choti si bachhi hai? Ek baar bhi nahi? Pihu toh wahan hi thi, Krish ke paas! Kyun nahi gaya main ek baar bhi? I can't help but feel jealous of Krish! He got to spend time with her from when she was just a little bundle! If only I went there before Nandini Kapoor that day woh nahi kar pati blackmail Priya ko! Mujhe pehle hi Priya ko leke uss ghar se chale jana chahiye tha! Uss hi din his din Dad ke murder ke liye usse blame kiya gaya! Maine Priya ko ghar se le jaane dia! Kyun sab hua? Kyun?
He clutched his head hard feeling heavily disturbed, tears trickling down his eyes. He was feeling throbbing pain in his head.

Just then he heard a knock on the door. He knew it was Tarun as Priya won't dare to come to him right then.
Ram: Come in.
Tarun opened the door. He was holding a tray which fruit juice and medicine. He entered the room and stood in the doorway with an apologetic face.
Ram looked at him, teary-eyed.
Ram(softly): Dekhne aaye ho main zinda hoon ya nahin?
Tarun: Sir yeh aap kya keh rahe hain....
He kept the tray on the coffee table.
Tarun: Aapko headache ho raha hoga isiliye main yeh lekar aaya. Last time you fainted. I'm sorry I shouldn't have disturbed you.
Ram shook his head.
Ram: You didn't disturb me Tarun. I'm sorry I overreacted.
Tarun sighed deeply.
Tarun(forwarding the glass to Ram): Sir please drink this and have the medicine.
Ram: Tarun mujhe kuch nahi chahiye.
Tarun: Sir this is not good for your health.
Ram: Health? Tarun dekh nahi raha ho kya raha hai?
Tarun: Of course dekh raha hoon. Thik hai mat pije. Pihu baby aake daant lagayegi tab shayad samajh aayega.
And Pihu's cute face with a big frown, hand on her waist came in front of Ram's eyes.
Ram(with a small smile): Tu Pihu ka naam leke juice pila raha hai mujhe Tarun?
Tarun: Sir main toh sach bol raha hoon. Usne agar aake dekha ki aapki tabiyat kharab hogayi tab toh hum sab ki class legi tab toh sach batana padega na ke aapne juice nahi piya...meri kya galti!
Ram glared at Tarun then thought for some moments. He forwarded his hand and took the glass still glaring at him who was smiling.
He stood up, kept Shivi's photo frame on the bedside table then turned to Tarun.
Ram: Tarun Priya ko bolo uper aane ko please. Main room mein jaa raha hoon. And I'll have the juice don't worry.
Tarun handed him the medicine strip.
Tarun: Okay bol deta hoon.
Ram nodded and took a sip of the juice. Tarun stood there only.
Ram: Tarun yaar jaa na! Itna bhi bharosa nahi hai kya tujhe mujhpe?
Tarun sighed then left the room.
Ram again looked at Shivi's photo then went to his room.