It is currently 00:02am. I just finished watching a film called Acrimony. It was actually quite good, I didn't get distracted or zone out. I'm not tired yet and there's another film I want to watch but I'm not sure if I should force myself to sleep or not. My parents are asleep so it's just me awake now.
I'll drink some apple juice before I brush my teeth ready to sleep, Im craving it. I texted Lorenz to watch it too even though he's sleeping. I didn't want to text him just in case it woke him up but he always used to say to me Never feel like you can't text me or don't worry about texting me at night.
I made myself a chip buttee sandwich as a snack when watching the film and now I'm really full, tomorrow (or today) is my last day of fasting. I feel like it'll be harder since I've got my appetite back lol.
Oh also, I forgot to mention this, but Honey is going to be dyeing my hair. She wanted me to get a full dye but I just want a dip dye. I don't want to damage my entire hair lol. I could go to Lorenz's sister. She's a hairdresser. Maybe me and Honey could both go there. I might ask Lorenz during the day. But I don't know if we are to see each other. I want to. I'd love to. And I think he wouldn't mind seeing me either if there wasn't all this stress. He once told me only a month or so ago that he would spend every day with me if we both could. Honey actually asked me this on FaceTime last night. She asked when we will next see each other and I was like probably a few months. We both knew we wouldn't see each other for a long time after Wednesday last week. She was like really? I'm like yeah, unless he comes down during uni once or twice... I don't see it happening, as much as I want to. It's a shit situation. I'll be busy for January anyway. I'll still ask about his sister though and how much she charges and whatnot. I'm kinda worried I'll just speed up the process of my hair greying. I have found two grey hairs and I want to cry lol, I think that's due to stress though I never had it before. But I haven't pulled them out cos idk if this is an old wives tale, but apparently pulling them out just makes them grow back. My mum always used to say to me to never dye my hair until I get a head full of grey hair, cos otherwise I'll just damage my hair and she's probably right and she's gonna be against me dyeing my hair but at this point I've disappointed everyone enough anyways, plus it's my hair. In all honesty I am worried I'll ruin it more but it'll only be the ends of my hair as it's dip dye. I'll ask Lorenz and then see what he says and if not then me and Honey could do it. Idk. We shall see. But I am set on changing my hair. There's not much else that is on my mind right now to talk about and that's rare lol. I'll try sleep soon. Good night diary. - 00:17am.
— 2:18am- so I'm laying in bed trying to sleep and I just randomly thought of this new book Honey sent me but I need to finish the current book I'm reading. It's called 'As long as the lemon trees grow.'
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