547 days

😭

Been awake for hours
I have a fever and I constantly feel like I'm gonna throw up
I don't feel good 😭😭
3:59am

Just threw up three times in the sink. Ended up crying 😭 i hate being sick. Ayrton's house was the first time I was sick in probably years and that was a small amount, this is full on everything. I have a headache and temperature. Not sure what to do. Can't miss another day of uni. I don't feel good but I feel better now that I've been sick😭 I've literally probably been awake since 1am.

I also had bad dreams. You know when you're ill and you have fever dreams, that's what I had on repeat over and over every time i tried to sleep.

Think I'm gonna sleep downstairs on the sofa in case I need to be sick some more. Everything hurts even my thumbs hurt😭 I'll still put my alarm on to get ready for placement 😭😭😓

Still kinda feel like I'm gonna be sick my stomach feels weird

4:15am

Just Been sick some more
Feel awful😭 can't even look at my phone
With me, if I've been sick, that's how you know I'm really ill cos I'm never sick
5:32am

I feel awful. Can't even open my eyes, they're so swollen. And in pain. And keep watering. And my head really hurts, have such a bad headache. I've managed to keep some food down. My mum has made soup and I really don't have an appetite but she's telling me to eat it. I'm literally typing this squinting because my eyes hurt. I thought I was starting to feel better but it's probably the paracetamol. Cos I don't feel too good, I wanna sleep the pain away but I can't even do that. They normally say the second day of anything is the worst, such as second day of period, second day being ill whatever etc etc.

It's mainly my eyes and head that's bothering me right now. I sent a snap to my close friends of my eyes yesterday & they were
Like we knew you were ill but not that bad, genuinely it's crazy I saved the pic as well. They're less swollen today

Just found out my one friend was in hospital and she missed the entire week of placement too so we can make up our hours together, I've asked her what's wrong I had no idea

I'm debating going into work for my night shift on Saturday.

Don't think I'll be able to sleep for a while and I can't do anything
Can't do uni work
Can't watch films to pass time by
Just have to close my eyes

It's times like this where I take my health for granted

I'll try to sleep
Good night diary
22:26pm

Feel better today alhamdulilah. But still feel like I need to sleep and can't be on my phone too much my friends have been checking up on me bless them
8:08am

I've had to cancel plans with tash tonight and Iehab and iqsa for Friday night we were gonna go for food but I told them to go instead cos I didn't wanna risk it. So annoyed though I haven't seen tash in a while and I always love spending time with Iehab and iqsa 😓 idk I'll see about Friday
Feel a little dizzy

Brother in law is leaving for Dubai this weekend

Craving prawn crackers so bad they're actually one of my fave snacks I just barely eat them

Don't see myself doing into placement tomorrow still feel ill and I don't wanna go in when I'm starting to feel better and potentially make myself feel worse.

Absolutely not going to placement tomorrow. Will have paracetamol before bed and I don't think I'm gonna work either on Saturday. Think this is my body's way of telling me to take it easy
my eyelids are still swollen and a little painful but inshAllah todays the last of it and tomorrow I'll be better

Apparently I said I wanted apple juice in my sleep so bless my mum got me apple juice. I love apple juice and any fruit juice is good for when you're I'll although I've heard orange juice isn't the best. I'm craving grape juice I haven't that in so long

Had a nice chat with A
Will finish watching Craigslist killer then sleep
Good night diary
21:14pm

The Weeknd
Drake
Chris brown
They Never get old

David kushners song Daylight is finally out 🙂 been waiting for ages for the release of this song
Gonna see if anyone's covered it on the piano

Chemical by post malone is chilled out

I'm towards the end of my period and lately I've been using this thin pants liner thing and it's so comfy and convenient lol

He had prawn craaaackkkeeerrrrs. Tbh I'm glad he ate well. He doesn't normally eat well so I'm happy he ate. Even if I wanted prawn crackers😂 but I'm not craving it that much right now cos my appetite is a little funny
I just randomly remembered a few things about A that I'll write about tomorrow if I remember cos I tired now. Just finished the film, was kinda sad

Debating paying my dad the £3k back now ish
Like in small monthly payments
I know there's no rush with it but I'd feel better if I did
I don't see myself going to work Saturday
I've had one Sudafed before bed now and it's done the job
I'll probably be back to my normal self tomorrow but want Saturday to rest up I don't wanna over do it
Can't wait to watch Peter Pan and Wendy in Disney plus tomorrow

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