547 days

30/4

Tonight's been chilled out
I'm happy I worked tonight
It's three of us altogether

Had a racist patient which was lovely lol the nurse almost said something to him and his wife

It got really busy around 9-11pm, to the point where I genuinely thought to myself , if I hear one more buzzer go off I'm out. It got irritating but it's chilled out now. They low-key wanted me to work tomorrow cos there's only two of them but I cba even if I need the money.

I'm just going on break now it's 4am. Will go for an hour and half.

I am feeling quite needy tonight. Not like horny or anything but just feeling like I want A. I really want his cuddles and hugs and cute kisses and everything else. Just him.

I've had two paracetamol , one before coming to work and one during work. Just to make sure I feel okay.

Surgeons get paid approx £1500 per patient here and anesthetiser get paid £800 per patient
Get all the tea on night shifts lol

4:07am

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Wallah Iehab is my best friend 😂 alhamdulilah lol
I've got the giggles lmao I spoke to her after I spoke to A. I'm seeing her and iqsa tomorrow evening and she said that works better for them so it's all good

Now I'm home alone vibing

Me and my dad are back to normal and talking all okay and bless him he brought a fruit salad with my fave fruits blueberries and strawberries and sprinkled sugar on it. I told him about the racist patient and I agreed with everything my dad said and he actually said the same thing as other people, always turn it back on them. So where are you from? He knows it bothers me I hate racism so much. Especially indirect passive racism. It sticks with you it's the one thing that seriously bothers me

I felt a little urgh when I woke up from my nap when I was on call to A but I feel okay now

I've lost a little weight this last week, haven't had an appetite  I weighed myself last night at work and I'm quite skinny again I lose and gain weight so fast lol. Got no problem with it alhamdulilah for health I'm not gonna complain. But trying to eat a little more

Tomorrows gonna be fun inshAllah I can tell the vibes are gonna be good.

I'm conflicted between a ds3 & vw
I've found a ds3 I really like 😭😭

I only just remembered Me and the Nigerian doctor Chris were talking last night and he was helping me with uni and things and he did offer me his number for uni purposes as I said to him again that I am with A and I've told him that sometimes guys take over step the limit as friends but I wouldn't mind being just friends with him and he said he said he will respect that so I'll tell A. He genuinely does help loads with my uni work I finally understand ECGs because of him.

If A isn't cool with it then I'll just delete chris number I cba with the hassle. It's a friendship and nothing more but it isn't worth risking my relationship with A. But I hope A is cool with it anyways cos it's just for education

I feel horny lately 😭😭😭