547 days

23/4

Such a good day alhamdulilah
From start to finish
Will write later
But absolutely shattered. I was lying on the sofa in iehabs house and almost fell asleep. I'm so comfortable at her house lol and I was chilling with her sisters and things. Watched a horror movie

I haven't recovered from a lack of sleep I feel run down but I haven't told or complained to anyone. My nose bled a tiny bit again today but it was only a tiny bit, and I was coughing loads after my night shift I feel the toll on my body. It's not the night shifts, it's the stress and lack of sleep. Making myself ill.

But I've spent so much these last few days
Paid for all our meals and drinks and I spent about £200 for iehabs bday and she honestly deserves it but it's like I'm taking 3 steps forward with work but then 10 steps back cos I'm spending it but I wanna treat my best friend at the same time

Gonna see if I can work this weekend.

I don't mind spending when it comes to my friends I love them. I'd do anything for them

It's just I want a car

I surprised Iehab and she was wearing that dressing gown I got for her bday two years ago and I searched everywhere for that dressing gown cos it was sold out and eventually bought it when it got back in stock. So I was happy to see her wearing it bless. She was so surprised and I filmed her when she opened the door. Balloons were a bit pricey but she deserves it

I got her a Jean Paul perfume and omg it might be my new fave perfume I really want it 😭😭😭 I was gonna get her the YSL Libre but I didn't wanna get her the same perfume and I'm really happy with the one I got her. She loved the lipstick as well I did think she'd like that. Colour
I want that one for my bday now I fell in love with it
Jean Paul scandal perfume

I'll upload pics and things later

Met his friends finally
Was chilled out but didn't think there was much to speak about so I mainly just listened lol

I could tell B was tired or bored So I asked if he wanted a milkshake . I honestly do love the kid he's well behaved and mannered and I like speaking to him and care for him. He spoke to me the entire walk there about things and I'll try and ask things or make conversation about things he's interested in

He was showing me some football kits he'd like
He likes the black psg one

I told Iehab I was at kaspa's after and bless her she sent me this discount code for kaspas she has that comes with her insurance but I already paid but I love that she looks out for me . I didn't care about the money but I just love that she thought of that
She also gave me sweet chili dip and I was like how did you know it's my fave and she goes I remmeber from wiwos. She's incredibly thoughtful
We had a nice sing song in the car with us three just chilling and singing non English songs. She liked my Playlist
I use  Apple Music sooooo much it's an essential lol

We are very similar in a lot of ways but also different lol. She wanted me to send some songs so I sent it on a group chat between us three

Didn't really get to talk to A much which was a little upsetting but it is what it is. I got to see him so that's good

Met up with iqsa as well and we had a really funny chat in the Starbucks car park lol and she actually said my driving is good alhamdulilah and they helped with parking

I really feel like I need to sleep for two days
Like a long ass cat nap
Speaking of cats, I played with iehabs cat today. So cute
Had a little pamper day as well I painted my nails over at her house

Absolutely beyond shattered
I told Iehab I was gonna stay up until midnight to wish her happy birthday but I can't emphasise enough how tired I am. I haven't felt this worn out and drained and tired in years genuinely

I told placement I won't be in until like 10:30 tomorrow and my tutor and placement was fine witn it

The hours are from 9-5pm depending on the department

Me and harisa aren't on the same department
I'm in renal all week
I don't like studying renal it's solid I hate it
I'm not really looking forward to placement but I think it's cos I'm so worn out that I cba with anything but sleep but I know I won't be able to have a lie in for ages

I need a good lie in

I only slept five hours after my night shift as well, woke up at 12pm.
Iehab said to me that she can tell I haven't been on my phone much lately. And it's true I only just got back to some messages today. I'm really not on it that much lately

I've put my alarm for 8. That's a lie in I've had in a while lol

Urgh anyway I think I'm starting to get agitated with my lack of sleep cos I'm starting to notice it's affecting my health
I couldn't even register what Ayrton was telling me about the football scores being 4 all. Like I genuinely know what that means obviously but for some reason I wasn't able to comprehend what it meant at the time and I've never felt so stupid. I'm just tired lol I think tiredness really affects me and the way I think
Good night diary

23:26pm

Oh I also got black huaraches such a bargain
And I also really appreciated and loved that he dropped me to my car and didn't let me walk alone. And how he drove me down cos I didn't know the route bless him. I really do appreciate it

The car was starting up weird today again :/

Urgh can't sleep
Just sent a long message to Iehab for her birthday
I was looking at our pictures and forgot some of the memories we have had together alhamdulilah. 

00:08am