547 days

28.3.2023

I do not feel that well☹️ I started coughing a bit last night and I couldn't sleep properly during the night either, had staggered sleep, woke up at 4 then 5, and I been awake since 5 now. I kept having dreams my middle sister died and it kinda messed with my head a bit. I also got quite warm with his hoodie on during the night so I woke up and found it around my neck but my arms out of the sleeves 😂 I must have been too tired to take it off completely and just got my arms out instead lol. I kinda burrowed myself in his hoodie, that's probably why I fell asleep so fast lol, his scent was all around.

Ive seen that I have a missed FaceTime call from H last night but I put my phone on do not disturb and went straight to sleep.
But yeah now that I'm awake I can tell I don't feel right like I know im probably coming down with something, already have a headache, nose is running.
I'm also soreeeeee down there but in a good way. My inner thighs hurt as well, which sometimes happens afterwards. But it's a good type of pain.

So I drove to his yesterday for the first time ever , pretty sure maps took me a longer route but at least I am learning different routes. I've never seen him wear joggers it was the first time I seen him in his comfy clothes and it was quite different but I liked it, but jeans will always look good on him. He looks good in anything tbf. MashAllah

He's so clean and tidy for a guy and it's such an attractive quality to have. MashAllah. The only guys I've ever come across who is really neat and tidy is my uncle and my dad and I love that about them both, it's good to be able to know how to keep a house tidy and clean, idk how to explain it I just like it and respect the fact he looks after hygiene.

I ended up doing some of the work learning thing and it's so long. Annoys me when I spend so long on a test and then failed it, put my laptop away after the last one cos it really annoyed me. At least I got to have a shortbread biscuit whilst doing it though 😂 I love shortbread its probably my fave biscuit.

He was being playful and kept slapping my ass and I have no complaints about that😏😂 I said before in a diary entry that I like it for some reason😂 sometimes he does a bit too hard but it's nothing that would cause me too much pain. I like it when he grabs my ass  think I've told him this before. Tickled me and stuff and he was being cute and hugging and stuff . He went to wash his bike and I stayed in his house doing the e learning. He kept kicking my right thigh and i have a small bruise now , I would have thought my body would have developed some sort of Ayrton immunity at this point 😂

He bit the side of my neck when we hugged and I didn't even realise I liked it but I was defo starting to get turned on at that point. I had put my Mac away cos that failed test annoyed me so then went upstairs to watch a film and chill. I put a horror film on though I can't say I paid that much attention cos he started touching me in places that gets me hot and bothered. I tried to focus on the film but I couldn't 😂

I was like how does it not bother you if I touch you so I went to touch him and he was already kinda hard which turned me on way more and I loved it but I tried to hide the fact that I liked he was hard 😭😂 not sure I did a good job though at hiding it.

I felt like I had to pee during it which is quite rare for me. I normally feel that pee feeling when he's doing something else that involves his hands but I really enjoyed it yesterday. He did something I didn't think I'd like but I actually liked it a lot yesterday and that's when I got the pee feeling but it didn't last long cos I think he changed rhythm or something. I tried my hardest to be quiet at times, I don't really think at all during it, I think I  bit my lip once to be quiet but it felt so good.

I felt really sensitive , I think it's a thing to be more sensitive when you're on. I think I'm quite sensitive in general but it's amplified when I'm on.