547 days

Monday 16th January 2023

Dear diary,

I went to bed really late (1:30am) and now Honey has called me at 6am out of my sleep because she was really worried about her health.
So I'm going to placement alone but it's okay.
My head is spinning but not gonna lie I have a weird adverse reaction to way too much sugar and I've noticed if I consume a lot of sugar, the next day my head spins lol so I'm hoping it'll subside within a few hours and I just need to eat clean today.
On the slightly positive but nerve wracking side, I'll be having a full day of my OWN patients. Scary. - 6:51am

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I've been bombing through my consultations I'm so pleased with myself alhamdulilah x1000. Although in all honesty they were fairly easy patients. My next patient is late, there's no past medical history, no medication history or family history so I have nothing to go on.

I fully admitted to my parents that I'm in contact with Lorenz. Dreading going home idk what my dad will say tbh as my mum has probably told him. They might be a bit stricter with who or when I go out now. It was gonna be said sooner or later anyway.

I drove here and there was a bit of traffic but not too much. I'm running on 4.5 hours of sleep. I've noticed when I get less sleep, I'm more awake during the morning but I'll probably crash later on. My patient still isn't here. It just says she has a bad throat and wanted a female practitioner. A patient also told my supervisor I'm fantastic which I'm so happy about! Alhamdulilah. Like I said I don't want to brag but I always thought I was terrible at this so it's nice to get feedback. Even bad feedback, so I can work on myself.

Patient is here - 10:33am

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12:51pm- honey facetimed me earlier and spoke to her for about 15mins. I just inhaled my lunch. I wasn't even that hungry but I had it alllll. Pasta, fruit salad and a peanut butter snickers bar.

I'm now going to read my book, I got a little bit of pasta sauce on it woops.

I kinda wish I never told my mum about me and Lorenz because I was looking forward to seeing Lorenz this weekend, maybe I still can. Im finding myself overthinking things when I can't even control it as it's in the future but it's the only thing I'm thinking of right now.

I have a slight headache too ngl.

I have a different supervisor for the afternoon and he's more vague so he'll be a bit difficult, I find him intimidating sometimes.

13:22pm- just had an enlightening conversation with my mum and about me and A, I'm more calm with things now but my dad will probably kill me :/ I think she's starting to accept this is the life I've chosen without me running or moving away.