547 days

4/5/23

Dear diary

I am enjoying placement today. Not like omg this is amazing, but I genuinely can say I have enjoyed it and found it useful today. I have been awake since 4:30am. I think I was fast asleep by 21:30pm. I was gone, was so tired yesterday. I did a bit of revision at 4am, that's partly why I went to sleep early; so I could wake up and do some revision.
Also, I got a lift with harisa today so I got dropped off at hers and was there at 6:30am. We had a looonngggg catch up and we laughed a lot which made me miss our friendship.

I started early so I get to finish early. The PA I'm with today is actually an OSCE examiner as well, so I did bloods (I messed up🫣, but I'm gonna do more after my lunch) but the PA said I'm free to go home at 1pm if I want to, he's like I don't get why students should stay in placement when they have exams. The day where I could go home early, I don't have my car 😭😂 he even said he'd sign everything off for me and all my hours .

I asked to do more bloods and cannula so he sent me to another department to do them but they didn't have any patients so I went on lunch. I've taken the fibre one bar he got me when I was at work. I had a fruit salad. Trying to eat more to get more energy. Cos I burn a lot on placement , burned about 300 cals yesterday.

Today was a crazy morning , we had a patient who is end of life care, palliative, and she had a seizure because I think the cancer has progressed to the brain. It was sad to see, I made a silent prayer for her. It was interesting to see how the PA dealt with it as he was first on scene and that's who the HCA called.

I also listened to a chest and a patient had tried to commit suicide, she had strangled herself with the oxygen tube thing. I could see the mark it left around her neck, she was crying when we went to speak to her. I almost cried. It was a lot to take in.

Speaking of suicide, I found out that a good family friend committed suicide, he was my cousins best friend and I used to see him now and again in Iran at my grandmas house. So sad.

Think the stress of exams is getting to me now and it's good cos it's keeping me motivated. But I hate it to the point it causes headaches and affects my sleep.

Also bless tash ordered her gift to the wrong house so I'll chase that up, she sent it to number 16 bless her

I accidentally just deleted my diary entry for the 2nd may😭😭
Oh well

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Was a good day. Had fun with honey on the drive home and she's the third person to say she likes my music lol. I laughed a lot I like being happy.
Came home and had food in the garden; rice and salmon. Helped Iehab. It started to rain so I got an umbrella cos I like being out in the rain it's peaceful but then my socks were getting wet so I went inside.

Wrote a note to the people who live down my street asking them to pop up to my house to give the parcel cos I went down theirs three times and think no one is home.

A called and said B broke his wrist which I felt so bad for bless his heart. These things happen. I remember when my sister broke her wrist or arm when she fell off her bike and landed on her wrist as well. Hopefully he makes a speedy recovery and gets to do something fun on his bday. I told him to tell B I said get well soon.

Revision😭
Last day of AMU placement tomorrow. Meeting with honey on Monday for my bday and tash on Saturday but I hope we don't stay out long. The stress is getting to me now.

I've had millionaire cheesecake cos my parents got it for my bday and it's so tasty.

Doing nights tomorrow which I don't mind, I wanted to work at least one night this week, wanted to do Saturday night but it's all good. I'm gonna take my Mac or mums iPad to do work.