547 days

Morning

I've woken up to pray namaz, and normally I sleep right after but I decided to publish that diary entry from a few days ago. I called it my heads a jungle cos it always reminds me of that song literally called my heads a jungle.

It's currently 6am. I'll try and sleep again. I'm wearing an all grey outfit again lol, grey shorts and grey top. When I wear something I like, I'm instantly in a better mood lol even if it's just pjs.

There is still one thing I've wrote time and time again and published but always deleted . It's a secret and this genuinely really is a secret. No one knows about this one thing, and I've always debated publishing it or not and it's not like anyone knows me but it's just so personal, it's something that I think about from time to time. Maybe I will one day idk.

Good night diary
6:16am

Uni work for an hour
Meet Ellie for painting pottery
Be home in time for sister

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So I didn't end up meeting Ellie we rearranged.
My sister and brother in law are staying until Tuesday, they're leaving Tuesday evening as the doctors are on strike so my sister doesn't need to be at work
We went to this farm that was really for kids but I'm a kid at heart and they only had like four animals but it was something different and I'm happy I went , I fed sheep and goats and ponies and donkeys 😫❤️ was so funny cos we bought animal food there to give to the animals and it came in these paper bags and my brother in law got scared and gave the ENTIRE bag like the goat took it off him and the goat ended up eating the paper bag too 😭😂 we had to walk away like we didn't do anything, don't act suspicious. then we went shopping and I normally don't like shopping with my sister cos we are so different but I told her last time that we aren't the same person, let me do me and you do you. So she was calm today.

The car drive there was funny, my brother in laws car has this sound system where you can control where the sound goes and we were blasting Arab / Middle Eastern music and they put the sound system at the back where I was sat😂

I facetimed Ilham cos the bras were on sale in m&s and they had colours she likes. I was gonna buy some for myself but didn't have my size :(

I ended up getting dragged into H&F drama I'll always be there for H, but idk why I get dragged into it?

I got Levi's and I overheard a guy say he washes his jeans once every six months and I'm like bro you what?? Im also getting random wordles from random people I keep declining. I also got an email someone hacked my twitter account and changed my password lol, I never use it. Don't even have the app I just got it years ago but like that's a bit odd.

Came home and facetimed H, helped made food.
Had to take my hijab off and stay in my room cos my hair was giving me a headache being tied up.

Probably gonna go over some uni work before tomorrow. I feel a bit unhealthy  I haven't ate much this weekend but I think all the junk from last week has caught up so im gonna go gym before uni tomorrow. Gonna try go every day until I start my period or until Ramadan starts on the 23rd.

Ayrton made a comment about sheep earlier and it made me laugh 😂 I read it when I was with family and I fully nose exhaled lol.
My friends keep making plans for next week and I need to keep up with them 😫

They had some good perfume there on sale, even my fave perfume , YSL libre that I love but I didn't get it as I already have a bit left still at home but like I wantttt.

ALSOOOO I went to a Cadbury store and they didn't have Black Forest Cadbury I'm sorry but that should be illegal.

What I find funny is that I nibble on food at home, cos I'm the only child at home now I know no one will touch my food. Or i take a bite out of something and then I don't eat the rest and my dad will always eat it. I just took a bite out of a brownie and don't want the rest so I gave it to my dad and he ate it, one time I was on FaceTime with Ilham a few days ago and I had something and gave the rest to my dad and my dad ate it and Ilham was like you know what's crazy? My dad wouldn't eat my food, she was like the other day I tried to give him something I had taken a bite out of and her dad ripped off the piece she had taken a bite out of and bit around it 😂

My families literally watching Dubai houses on YouTube. Im likeeeee I wanna gooooo.

My sister got me a Ramadan advent calendar lol it's the first Ramadan calendar I've had.

Gonna do a home workout now.

H just said she's gotten into a car accident and her car is written off. Main thing is she's all okay and she isn't hurt

Omgggg

She doesn't have a car so I'll have to take us to uni and I'll have to drive to hers which is fine. Need to get insured asap.

I think her insurance will cover for her car though not sure how it works but main thing is she's okay.

Never mind she said she needs to get a new car and that the accident was quite bad.

No no no I'm actually so scared to drive again
No😭

Okay
Pep talk
You can drive
You were alright at driving before that tree decided to grow roots and grow there and grow spikes .

Let's think of it this way

The tree liked your car so much it wanted to be a part of it.

Omg I'm so scared 😭

Just have to look everywhere before I manoeuvre or turn.
I am responsible for not only my life but honeys and other people around me
😭😭😭

It can't be that bad
I'm so nervous
I'm so scared 😭😭

I hate the route to honeys house as well
I take a longer route to her house I've drive there a few times and I go through the train station and stuff to avoid all the traffic lights

Listen I was gonna start driving for work and stuff anyways so I guess I'm just doing it in advance. :(
I am actually so nervous.
I think I've forgotten how to start a car 💀😂

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I've been speaking to Ilham about how I feel to drive and she's like it's okay and was like the roundabouts by where you live is horrible and I'm like initttt but be safe like make sure ur safe and she was like especially after those people that crashed and died . They were literally a year younger than me.

I'm like how can I make sure I'm safe when I'm the one in charge of the car 😂😂 tbh I'm always like this before I drive after a long time and then I feel okayish but idk it's kinda different this time round. Crazy how we could die at any second. I appreciate her giving me reassurance tho

She even offered me money for short term insurance. I've never met a friend like Ilham. Out of all my friends I've had, she's the one that is hard to gain trust and loyalty but once you have it, she's so trusting and loyal and kind and thoughtful. Like you know you have each others backs. InshAllah we will be friends forever cos I value her so much and have so much respect for her.

Everyone's gone to sleep and I'm awake
Need to sleep
Was watching the clovehitch killer on Netflix
22:50

Obsessed with a new song me and Ilham both like it's like afrobeats it's such a vibe
Called : Wiz party - wiz kid

Life hack: go on to settings, go to Apple Music, change music settings to Late Night, makes music louder.
Road trips with Ilham is so fun got me thinking about memories back in 2021 , we had so much fun, I'll never forget going to Barry together. Can't wait for Thursday to go with her. We go regardless of weather or whatever, a motive with the right people is happiness. I once drove all the way to hers, picked her up, just so she could get this milkshake she wanted. I'm happy just thinking about it. The way we vibe and dance got me moving like I got a wedding to be going to😂
I can't even dance but my hips don't lie 😂😂

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