Out Of Time

fifty-five

The next week flew by in a flash to Y/N. She really only spoke when spoken to, and was distance. Everyone on the team was concerned for her, but no one knew what to say. The day of the attack, the team went out for shawarma after but she refused to join. The images of Tony flying into the portal and then falling kept her mind going. She hadn't slept since the attack. Her mind was finding all the ways it could to blame herself for Tony's almost death. It wasn't sensible. But nothing was anymore.

Tony had been trying to speak to her since the day of the attack, with no luck. She would either straight up ignore him or seemingly disappear out of thin air. He wanted to-no, needed to talk to her. So after Thor and Loki had left with the Tesseract back to Asgard, Tony went up to Steve.

"Where is she?" Tony asked. Steve looked up at him, raising an eyebrow in question. "I thought she'd be here to see the cube off."

Steve sighed, folding his arms across his chest and leaning against his bike. "I couldn't get her out of the apartment. She won't... she doesn't speak. Doesn't eat, or sleep. When I look at her, it's like she's not even here."

"I need to speak with her."

"I don't think that's a good idea, Tony," Steve shook his head. "Not until she's feeling more like herself."

"I'm not sure if you know this, Rogers, since you were in the ice when it happened. But your sister and I were close at one point. We helped each other through the tough stuff. And so I-"

"Well from what I heard from Fury, you threw her out a window. Which explains the tiny scars on her face." Tony opened his mouth to speak but Steve just continued on, a little louder. "I also heard, that you told her that if she walked out on you, there would be no coming back. So I really don't see how you talking to her can help."

"Just tell me where she is, Rogers," Tony pled. "I'll just visit her and if she doesn't want me there, I'll leave. I promise. I just need to see her."

"Fine," Steve sighed. "I'll send you the address. But you can't come until tonight. I've got to run some errands first, but I want to be there when you're talking to her. Got it?"

"Got it."

The team went their separate ways from the point in Central Park that they all were at. Steve had lied to Tony, he didn't have any errands to run. He just wanted to try and coax Y/N out himself, before Tony would. When Steve arrived at the apartment, he found Y/N where he had left her. Sitting at her chair in her bedroom, staring out the window.

"Thor took Loki and the Tesseract back to Asgard," Steve stated, shrugging his leather jacket off and throwing it onto Y/N's dresser. "Everyone on the team asked about you. Y/N..." Steve moved to kneel next to her, "they're all worried. I'm worried."

Y/N just stared blankly out the window. Steve followed her line of sight, gasping at the sight before him. How had he never noticed that you could see Stark Tower from her window? He quickly got up and closed the blinds. Steve then turned around and knelt in front of Y/N, carefully putting his hands on her cheeks.

"Y/N, I need you to say something, or just... just acknowledge me in someway! I can't stand to see you like this. I don't even know why you're like this. So, please... just say something and let me help you."

"Tony..." The name fell from Y/N's lips too quick for her liking, very raspy.

"Tony? What about Tony?"

"I... I..."

"Do you need him? He's suppose to come over later. I can see if he can come now."

"No." Y/N shook his head. "Tell him not to come..."

"What? Why?"

"Cause... I... I almost killed him... I closed the portal and... I almost killed, Tony."