Family Secrets 5: A Race against time

Please don't go

Notes: Nikki has a nervous break down while baby Ariyah finally comes home from the hospital.

When it was the next day the family had drove to the hospital to pick up baby Ariyah for making it pass the limit of what the doctors had gave her. Of course, Faith was super excited about having her baby to finally come home along with everyone else who was glad. It was a joyous occasion. But o the other hand, Nikki couldn't help but to feel a bit of bitterness on the tip of her tongue everytime that Faith had talked about how well Aryiah had been doing with her breathing and her other health concerns that the doctor had misdiagnosed her for.

Of course, Nikki knew that she shouldn't have been mad or upset at this fact. But she couldn't help but to think about her own daughter.

Here Nikki was trying to make the effort to stay on a clean and straight path not trying to take no crooked roads or go back to the lifestyle that she was living before yet she was still catching hell.

"What am I doing wrong?" Nikki had cried to herself frustrated that things wasn't working out for N'ylani as they should have been.

"Am I not praying enough?!" She asked herself.

"Am I not doing something right?!" She asked herself again as she had looked at her baby who was sleeping in the crib.

She was pacing back and forth worried out of her mind seeing that N'ylani's condition had gotten worser over the last few days starting when Drew had paid for her very expensive treatment plan.

"It was supposed to work why didn't you work?!" Nikki said shaking her head.

She was so confused as to why everything was happening with the way that they was happening.

If anything she had thought that she would've had good news to share with her family about N'ylani's condition. But it turned out that she didn't. Which was why she was so bitter about Faith's situation and she couldn't help it.

She didn't want to be bitter but this wasn't fair to her. Life didn't seem f air.

Now here she was yelling at the top of her lungs to God.

"I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT. I DID WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO!" Nikki hollered at Him with tears in her eyes. But she had immediately sucked it up not wanting no one to come in and check on her. "Please don't take her away from me." Nikki had wept as she was now looking over her child's crib with her vision getting blurry.

"It's not fairrr." She had whined. "I only have one despite how she had happened and Faith get to have 3 that was made out of love?!" Nikki said shaking her head.

"What did I do?!" Nikki cried to herself having one of those most painful solid cries that a person could ever have. 

"I tried to right all my wrongs." Nikki said wiping her tears away.

"This isn't right." She said with her heart not being able to take it.

"Please don't take my heart away from me I don't think I can do it." Nikki cried as she had fell to the floor having a private breakdown over her sickly, dying child.

She had went to every doctor that was available and who knew of N'ylani's condition to try to get a second opinion but that second opinion was looking too much like the first one and she just couldn't believe it. She was on the verge of giving up at this point.

After Nikki was going through the pain here Faith was playing with her new baby in her nursery room kissing her on the cheeks.

"Mommy loves you sooo much." Faith said playing with her baby while she cooed and smiled a drooling smile at her mama.